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  <title>My Crzay Little Mixed Up World</title>
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    <title>NEW! ----&amp;gt;DRABBLE</title>
    <published>2008-06-27T07:24:16Z</published>
    <updated>2008-06-27T07:24:16Z</updated>
    <content type="html">I'm back! Yay! LOL. Okay, so I know I've been gone for awhile and I haven't posted anything in like weeks, but I still wanted to let you all know that yes, I have been working. This is just a short drabble to show you the truth. I'm frantically trying to finish up my other story for you all so I can get to work on the sequel to Some Thing's You Just Can't Den, but, until then we'll just have to settle for what random/quick ideas come to my head. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;-Aly &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Title: Untitled (I'm horrible with titles. It takes me forever to figure them out) &lt;br /&gt;Pairing: Arok &lt;br /&gt;Raiting: G/PG - nothing majore. A little angsty though. &lt;br /&gt;Summary: Not exactly sure how to summarize this....Sorry. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt; &lt;a name="cutid1"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;“Hey.” Brian whispers softly as he steps into the studio.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;“Hey.” AJ replies just as softly.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;“Hey guys.” Brian says moving his eyes towards the rest of the guys in the room.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;“Hey.” The guys chorus nodding their hellos.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;“Your up first AJ.” Kevin says to AJ nodding towards the sound booth.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;“Alright.” AJ says getting up from the small couch. Brian holds his breath as AJ passes by him, their arms barely touching. Brian feels his heart skip a beat when he feels it and watches AJ tense up slightly as he quickly walks the rest of the way towards the booth.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Brian feels his heart sink at that action. He hates that they’ve been reduced to soft hellos and awkward touches. He wishes he could go back in time and fix what happened to them. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Brian watches as AJ settles into the booth and begins to sing. Letting the strong voice flow over him, Brian closes his eyes and smiles softly at the bitter sweet memories that flow through his mind. Visions of lounging around on the couch cuddled up to watch TV and nights under the stars staring up at the sky pronouncing their love for each other flood Brian’s head and he forces himself to keep his emotions in check.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The day passes as any other and he can tell the guys don’t know what to do about them anymore. They’ve done everything they can and he knows it’s killing all of them. Brian watches as Nick tries to start a conversation with them all and fails miserably, leaving the room in awkward silence once again. He smiles softly at his friends attempt at normalcy and then moves his attention back to AJ.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;“Alright guys. Looks like we‘re done.” Kevin announces. He’s met with silent nods and everyone moves out the door and into the parking lot.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;“Later guys.” AJ says, briefly glancing at them all before slipping his sunglasses on.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Brian watches as AJ gets into his car and drives off. Sighing, Brian watches the car disappear, wishing he could tell AJ how he feels.&lt;br /&gt; &lt;br /&gt;</content>
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    <title>Wallpaper/Banner</title>
    <published>2008-06-11T10:00:06Z</published>
    <updated>2008-06-11T10:00:06Z</updated>
    <content type="html">&amp;nbsp;I was bored and up late and listening to this song and it popped into my head....&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a name="cutid1"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;div class="ljcut" text="It's just another rainy day in London...."&gt;&lt;a href="http://pics.livejournal.com/smerky13/pic/000064c8/"&gt;&lt;img height="218" alt="" width="320" border="0" src="http://pics.livejournal.com/smerky13/pic/000064c8/s320x240" /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Let me know if you like it/if you take it.&lt;br /&gt;</content>
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    <title>Some Thing's You Just Can't Deny</title>
    <published>2008-06-10T03:32:57Z</published>
    <updated>2008-06-10T03:32:57Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Okay, so I have&amp;nbsp;some good news and some bad news and some better news. The&amp;nbsp;good news is that I have this weeks chapter&amp;nbsp;all done and ready to be posted. The bad news is that this weeks chapter is the fianl chapter of Some Thing's You Just Can't Deny. The better news however, is that I am returning with a sequel to Some Thing's You Just Can't Deny. I was thinking about it and I knew I couldn't just leave you guys hanging with this ending and I also guess it helped that I had a million ideas for the next one too. It's already in the works so we should be seeing it soon. I just wanted to let you all know what was going on and I'm sure i'll be posting&amp;nbsp;other things as well during our wait for the sequel. So, without further ado, here is the last chapter. I hope you all enjoy.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a name="cutid1"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;div class="ljcut" text="Chapter Twenty-Six"&gt;&lt;p&gt;Chapter Twenty-Six&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;How did I get like this. Not only am I in love with Brian, but I’m stuck here in between Nick and Howie on this too small couch because I’ve been desperately trying to avoid even talking to Brian, let alone being near him. I glance over at Brian from the corner of my eye for the thousandth time since we’ve gotten back over an hour ago. I take in the uneasy and uncomfortable look on his face that seems to match what I’m feeling and wonder what’s wrong with him. I then look at Nick and see the annoyed pissed off look on his face and know it’s because of the awkwardness that’s been in the air since we got into the car. I avoid his gaze as well when he looks at me and quickly turn my head and look at Howie. I almost laugh when I see Howie sitting beside me with this completely bored look on his face, like he’d rather be doing something a lot more interesting than pretending to watch TV. I inwardly sigh and scoot back farther into the cushions and move my stare back to the TV.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Alright, just, just stop, I can‘t take it.” Nick states suddenly, jumping up from the couch grabbing everyone’s attention. “It‘s awkward as hell in here and you two need to knock your shit off. Just fucking tell him already!” Nick yells angrily walking out of the room, grabbing Howie by the arm and taking him with him.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I feel the color drain from my face when Nick says this. I sit there stock still contemplating whether or not I should just make up some silly excuse to Nick’s behavior and run or if I should actually tell the truth. Sighing, I say a little prayer and say the first thing that comes to my mind. “I told him not to say anything.” I look at Brian quizzically when I here him say the same thing. He looks at me the same way as we continue to stare at each other in silence. The silence starts to become to much for me and his stare starts to burn and I finally have to look away as I break our silence. “I guess I should explain huh?” I ask glancing up briefly before continuing, not waiting for an answer. “I should‘ve told you from the beginning instead of hiding it. Then Nick found out and Howie and then when my mom basically said she knew I guess now‘s as good a time as ever. What I‘m trying to say is that, well, I, I love you Brian.” I look up and see Brian just sitting there, his expression blank and I automatically go on the defense. “Look, it‘s okay if you don‘t feel the same, I mean I hope we can still be friends and I really wish you don‘t hate me because of this and-” I’m cut off mid ramble by a pair of lips crashing against mine. It only takes a moment before I start to respond and open my mouth up to Brian. I feel in complete bliss. Brian’s mouth is heavenly and I can’t get enough of it, but I do need air so I finally break apart and gasp in the much needed oxygen. “Brian.” I let my question fall when he holds a finger to my lips and begins to talk.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I‘ve wanted to do that for so long now.” Brian says with a happy sigh. I smile at his words but continue to stay quiet. “When Nick said to just say it, I thought he was talking to me at first.” My brow crinkles in confusion when he says this as he continues on. “But then I realized he was obviously talking to both of us because when you said you told him not to say anything and then started explaining, it all made sense.” As Brian finishes up his explanation it all starts to make more sense. The reasons why Nick kept pushing me to make the first move. “AJ,” I’m pulled out of my thoughts by Brian’s voice calling my name. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yeah?” I whisper, my eyes connecting with his.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I love you too.” He whispers back. A small smile spreads across my lips as I move towards him and touch our lips together. The kiss is softer than the first with much more passion and love behind it.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I guess we should go let Nick know he‘s off the hook.” I say with a smile as we break apart.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yeah.” Brian says with a laugh taking my hand as we stand up.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I smile at our entwined hands as we make our way to the door and I pull it open. “Hey guys.” I say with a smile as we exit the room and step out into the hallway.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Fucking finally!” Nick exclaims noticing our hands. “Jesus Christ it took you guys fucking long enough. Do you know how crazy you guys were making me? I just wanted to scream at you guys to go and have sex already. Damn! This is the last time I ever keep a secret for you guys, fucking making me lose my mind trying to help you both without accidentally saying something.” Nick ends angrily.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I smirk at Nick’s ranting and quickly try to hide it when he turns back to face us. “Sorry Nick. We didn‘t mean to make you go through hell.” I apologize.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yeah Nick, we honestly didn‘t mean to. Thanks though, for helping us.” Brian says with an apologetic smile.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yeah, yeah, yeah. I‘m just happy you guys are together, and when I need a favor I better not hear any shit from the two of you.” Nick says pointing at us. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“You got it man.” I say with a chuckle. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Congratulations guys.” Nick says with a smile hugging the both of us.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yeah guys, congrats.” Howie says hugging us as well.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Thanks guys.” Brian says with a smile pulling back from the hug.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“C‘mon, let‘s go get some dinner.” I say with a smile. “My treat.” &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Alright! This one‘s good Bri.” Nick says with a smirk. “Better keep him for awhile.” &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I plan on it.” Brian says with a smile turning to look at me. I smile at him and lean down, gently placing a kiss on his lips. As we all head towards the elevator, I look down at Brian and smile thinking back on how we ended up here. It wasn’t exactly ideal, but we made it and that’s all that counts.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&amp;nbsp;</content>
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    <title>smerky13 @ 2008-06-05T18:08:00</title>
    <published>2008-06-06T01:15:50Z</published>
    <updated>2008-06-06T01:15:50Z</updated>
    <content type="html">&amp;nbsp;Hey all,&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;So i'm a first timer, well when it comes to writing nivk/greg anyways. i've been a fan for awhile and absolutely L.O.V.E CSI. Which by the way comes on tonight (gotta catch up on this last season, i didn't get to really watch it the first time around). But i do come bearing gifts. A little drabble that popped into my head that i just had to write because i could not fall asleep until i did. So here it is. Hope you guys like it. And feedback is gratefully welcome.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;-Aly&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Title: Untitled&lt;br /&gt;Pairing: Nick/Greg&lt;br /&gt;Rating: G It's angsty though just to give you a heads up&lt;br /&gt;Summary: Nick has to learn to let go&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a name="cutid1"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;div class="ljcut" text="Read more..."&gt;&lt;font face="Arial"&gt;&lt;p&gt;I watch as you laugh and smile and I can’t help but feel my heart break a little seeing you so happy. Part of me is thankful that you’re happy again and the other part of me, the part that still misses you to death, is crushed because I know that smile isn’t for me. That I’m not the cause of that laugh. It kills me to know that you’ve moved on and I’m left here hanging on to the memory of what we had, wishing I could go back in time and hold onto you forever. I’m still trying to figure out how it all fell apart. How we just seemed to fade away from each other. I guess that I should be happy that we’re still friends, that I at least have that much of you.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Hey Nick, you ready man?” I look up at Warrick and nod. As I get up I take one last look at your smiling face before turning away and trying to live without you.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;</content>
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    <title>Some Thing's You Just Can't Deny</title>
    <published>2008-06-03T04:15:28Z</published>
    <updated>2008-06-03T04:16:04Z</updated>
    <content type="html">&amp;nbsp;Okay guys, here's this weeks chapter. Hope you enjoy.&lt;br /&gt;-Aly&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a name="cutid1"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;div class="ljcut" text="Chapter Twenty-Five"&gt;&lt;p&gt;Chapter Twenty-Five&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“C‘mon guys, we‘re gonna be late. Her flight leaves in an hour and you know how the airport can be!” I yell glancing down at my watch.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“We‘re coming, keep your pants on.” Brian calls back, stepping out of his room.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“You know, that sounds really dirty.” Nick says with a smirk as he walks out of his room. I chuckle at Nick’s statement.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Why do you have to make everything sound so dirty?” Howie asks with a small smile, shaking his head.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I don‘t make everything sound dirty. That‘s AJ.” Nick says clapping me on my back.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Whatever Carter. C‘mon, we gotta get going.” I inform them, heading to the elevator.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Jay, aren‘t you forgetting your mom?” Nick asks.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“No, she‘s downstairs checking out.” I say as the elevator dings open.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Oh.” Nick says before stepping into the elevator with the others.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Hey mom, ready to go?” I ask as we step into the lobby, seeing my mom standing close by.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yeah. All set.” She says with a smile. I smile in return and lead us out the hotel and to the car. As we all pile into the car and I pull out of the parking lot and onto the street I look at my mom and smile. I’m glad she was able to come out here and visit. Even through all the crazy hell this week, it was still fun. She catches my eye and smiles back at me and grabs my hand. I smile at the gesture and lightly hold her hand as we drive to the airport.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Jesus Christ, everyone and their mama decided to go on a trip today.” Nick exclaims as we enter the airport.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Nick, shut up.” Howie tells him with a stern look.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Dude, look at all these people. Man, the airport is gonna make bank today. Is it a holiday or something?” Nick asks looking around. I chuckle at his rambling as we wait for my mom to pick up her ticket. “Is there a convention going on or something? And - oh my God.” Nick says, staring at something. I follow his line of view and force myself not to laugh. “Is that a?”&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yes.” Brian answers, not letting Nick finish.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“But he-” Nick starts again.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I know, quit staring.” Howie says with another stern look.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“But he‘s wearing-” &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Just let it go dude.” I say, shaking my head, tearing my eyes away finally.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Look at his-” Nick says looking at us and pointing.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Nick! Don‘t point.” We all hush him at the same. I push his hand down back to his side and shake my head at him whispering a ‘no’ before pulling him away as my mom walks away from the desk and over to security.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Quit looking.” I tell him as we wait for my mom to go through security.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I‘m not.” Nick says and I look at him. “Okay, I‘ll stop, jeez.” Nick says rolling his eyes. I smirk at him but then return my eyes to my mom as I see her pass through security.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Well, I guess I‘ll see you all again later.” Denise says with a smile.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Bye Denise.” Howie says, leaning over the small fence separating my mom from us. “Have a safe trip.” &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Bye Howie. Watch over them for me and make sure Alex calls me.” She says with a smile, pulling away from the hug and looking over at me.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I roll my eyes at her as Howie laughs. “I will. I promise.” Howie says with a nod before moving away.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Bye Denise.” Nick says throwing his arms around my mom pulling her into a big hug.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Oh, bye Nicky. You be good okay. And don‘t go driving Howie crazy all the time. Save it for AJ.” She says with a smile. And I shake my head at her when I hear this.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Okay. I will.” Nick says with a chuckle, giving her one last hug before moving away.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Bye Denise. Have a safe flight. We‘ll miss you.” Brian says with a smile, moving to give Denise a hug.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I will. I‘ll miss you too.” Denise smiles back and returns the hug. “I know.” She whispers into Brian’s ear before pulling back, smiling softly at Brian. As Brian pulls back, he stares at Denise confused at first but then it clicks and his goes from shocked to sick and nervous all at the same time. Denise smiles at him one last time, gently nodding her head and letting him move back. Her eyes move from Brian’s to AJ’s and she smiles.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Bye Mom. Have a good flight, be safe and tell Tony I said hi.” I tell her with a smile as I move towards her. “I‘m glad you could come out here. I‘ll miss you.” I tell her as I give her a hug.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Oh, I’ll miss you too sweetie. And I’m glad I came out here too.” She says pulling me a little tighter. Just as I’m about to pull away she holds me in the embrace and whispers in my ear. “Tell him.”. As I pull away from her I’m completely confused and look at her. She smiles in return and cups my face in a loving gesture, looking straight into my eyes. At that moment I realize what she means and I feel my face fall; I can’t move and I can’t speak, all I can do is stare at her in disbelief. A million things fly into my head as she leans towards me once again, placing a small kiss on my cheek. “Tell him.” She whispers again with a knowing smile before letting go of my face and walking away.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I stand there as I watch her disappear. I move my eyes away from where my mother was previously standing and over to Brian. I jump slightly as our eyes meet and I quickly look away. “C’mon guys, let’s go.” Howie says moving towards the exit.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I follow the rest of the guys and watch as Nick takes one last look behind him and I follow his line of vision and chuckle slightly when I see the transvestite. “You know, I‘ve never really seen one look like that before.” Nick says grabbing everyone’s attention.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I look at the scantily clad dressed tranny standing over on the other side with his three inch hooker heels and five o‘clock shadow showing and shrug. “I have.” I say nonchalantly. As I look away I see Brian turn his head and look at me quizzically before turning back around and walking out the airport.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;-------------------------------------------------&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/div&gt;</content>
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    <title>Some Thing's You Just Can't Deny</title>
    <published>2008-06-03T04:10:38Z</published>
    <updated>2008-06-03T04:10:38Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Alright guys,&amp;nbsp;here's last weeks chapter that i didn't get to post. It's fairly&amp;nbsp;long just so you know. I have this weeks chapter done as well and i'll be posting that seperately from this one. So, without further ado, here you guys go.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a name="cutid1"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;div class="ljcut" text="Chapter Twenty-Four"&gt;&lt;p&gt;Chapter Twenty-Four&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Let‘s go to the beach.” I say as I walk into the room.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“What?” Brian asks from his spot on the bed, opening one eye as he looks at me.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I said, let‘s go to the beach.” I reply.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Why?” Howie asks from his spot on the chair, not glancing away from the TV.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Because, I‘m bored and I have all this energy I need to get out.” &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Well then go play with righty.” Nick says from his spot on the floor, game boy in hand.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Fuck you Carter.” I reply and Nick smirks. “C‘mon you guys! Quit being so damn lazy and get your asses up.” I yell at them, throwing a napkin at Brian’s head. I chuckle when all he does is look at it and push it off his chest before closing his eyes again. “Alright, you guys got fifteen minutes to get ready and then we‘re leaving whether you like it or not.” I announce. I’m met with a chorus of groans. ‘Alright, time to bring out the big guns.’ “Don‘t make me go get my mom. She loves going to the beach as much as I do. Now hurry up.”&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“That‘s so not fair.” Brian groans turning his head to look at me.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I know.” I say with a smirk before moving to the door. “Fifteen minutes!” I call back as I exit the room.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“AJ!” I pop my head out my door when I hear Nick calling. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“What‘s up?” I ask as I look at him.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Do you have my board wax?” &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Dude, why would I have your board wax?” I ask confused.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Because I asked you to hold it last time and you never gave it back.” Nick says with a sigh.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Oh, um, I don‘t know, what‘s it look like?” I ask as I move from the door back into my room.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Like fucking board wax dude I don‘t know.” Nick says shaking his head following me into my room.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“That helps.” I mumble as I look on the dresser. “This it?” I ask holding up a little box looking thing. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yes, thank you.” Nick says taking the wax from me.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Welcome. Hurry up, you got five minutes!” I remind him as he shuts the door behind him.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“You guys ready?!” I yell as I step out of my room, checking that I have everything I need.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I‘m glad we have the floor to ourselves because we‘d have a lot of problems. What with people yelling all the time.” Brian states as he exits his room.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I feel sorry for AJ‘s neighbors.” Howie says as he too exits his room. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I know, they have to deal with his loud ass all the time.” Nick adds as he closes his door and walks out into the hall.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Well, now that we‘re all done picking on me, can we get outta here?” I ask crossing my arms.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yeah, let‘s go.” Brian says with a smile.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Alright, let‘s go get my mom and get going.” I say as I make my way to my moms room. “Hey mom, you ready?” I ask as I knock on her door.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yeah, all set.” She replies with a smile when she opens the door.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Good. Let‘s go.” I say excitedly, quickly making my way to the elevator.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Someone‘s excited.” Nick states with a laugh.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Someone had too much coffee this morning.” Brian replies shaking his head.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“We sure are in for one interesting afternoon.” Howie says taking a deep breath.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“You all act like it‘s never happened before. I mean we deal with Nick all the time and he‘s way worse than I am.” I state rolling my eyes, glancing over at Nick. Nick just flips me off in reply as we enter the elevator.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Damn women drivers, never know where the hell they‘re driving.” I mumble as I finally make my way to the beach.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Oh, honey. Calm down.” I hear my mom say as she pats my arm.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“We‘re here. Finally.” I sigh as I park and shut the car off&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Let‘s go down by the pier.” Howie suggests as we all get out of the car.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Alright.” I agree as we head down towards the pier. “This good D?” I ask finding a clear spot.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yeah.” Howie answers. I nod and drop my things down on the sand.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“There‘s not many people out today?” Brian says. I look around at all the people scattered around the beach and give him a skeptical look. “Well not more than usual.” He amends with a shrug. I laugh and shake my head. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Um, hi.” I move my attention to the pretty blonde standing next to me with a smile on her face.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Hi.” I reply with a smile.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Can I barrow that?” She asks pointing down. I follow where her finger is pointing and smile.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Sure.” I say bending down to grab the bottle of sun block.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Thanks.” She says with a smile as I hand it to her.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“No problem.” &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Um, would you mind?” She asks holding out the bottle of sun block out to me. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;It takes a second, but it clicks and I nod. “Sure.” I tell her, taking the bottle and squirting a few drops onto my hand. She smiles and turns around so her back is facing me. “I like your tattoo.” I tell her, noticing the rose on her shoulder as I rub the lotion onto her back.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Thanks. I like yours too.” She says with a laugh when she turns around to face me once again. “All of them.” She adds with a smile. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yeah…Thanks.” I say with a chuckle.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Oh, I‘m Ashley by the way.” She says holding out her hand.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“AJ.” I reply shaking her hand.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“You wanna join us for a game? We were just about to play.” Ashley says nodding towards the volleyball nets.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Just as I’m about to answer Nick pops up by my side. “Sorry sweetie. Maybe next time.” Nick says putting his arm around her shoulder and walking her off. “He‘ll see you around.”&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I watch as Ashley’s face turns confused as Nick pulls her away and pushes her off to her friends. “Dude, what-?” I don’t get to finish my question when Nick interrupts me.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“What the hell McLean? You‘re fucking up the plan. Get your act together, one track mind, one track mind.” Nick says with a stern look.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Dude, what the hell? What fucking plan?” I ask completely confused at this point. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Never mind, just, that‘s not the point. Just quit your shit.” Nick says before walking away.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I stand there and watch as he walks away over to Brian. “What the hell just happened?” I say to no one. I shake my head and look up at the sky before deciding to just leave it alone. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Nope, I‘m done. I can only take falling off so many times.” I say as I lay out on my towel.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“You seriously not gonna go back out there?” Nick asks.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Nope. I‘m gonna work on my tan.” I say with a smirk. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“AJ, Brian is more tan than you.” Nick points out.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Exactly, that‘s why I‘m gonna work on it.” I explain.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Whatever.” Nick says rolling his eyes. “You coming Rok?” &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“No, I‘m gonna sit this one out.” Brian says with a smile, wiping the water from his face.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Aw, you gonna keep me company Bri?” I ask with smile.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yeah, I guess.” Brian says with a smile.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“You guys suck. C‘mon D. It‘s just you and me.” Nick says grabbing his board and running off into the water, Howie close behind.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Hey, where‘d your mom go?” Brian asks after a few moment.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Oh, she went up to the shops.” I tell him. “You know she loves to shop.” I say looking over at him.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yeah, we all know where you get it from.” Brian says with a laugh.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Shut up. She‘s worse.” I tell him, throwing my shirt at him.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yeah, but the two of you together is like a mad house.” &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“You just gotta know how to keep up.” I tell him with smirk, not denying what he said.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Hm…” Brian says, closing his eyes. I smile and turn my head up towards the sky, closing my eyes as well. After a few moments I feel drops of water and look up.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“What the hell Nick? Quit dripping water on me.” I tell him.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“My bad.” Nick says, throwing his board down and plopping onto his towel. “You guys should’ve stayed out there. The waves are good.” Nick informs.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“We’ll go in later.” Brian replies, his eyes still closed. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yeah, yea- Whoa!, whoa!, no!, no!.” Nick exclaims, jumping up, brushing off his shoulders.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Dude, what the hell?” I ask, sitting up, watching as Nick frantically brushes off his shoulders.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Nick you okay?” Brian asks, trying not to laugh.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Something was on me.” Nick says calming down.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yeah, maybe it was the same thing that got AJ’s foot.” Howie says and we all bust up laughing. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Hey!” I say, suddenly aware of what Howie said. “Forget you D. That was not funny.” I tell him with a pout, which only makes him and Brian laugh harder.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;----------------------------------------&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&amp;nbsp;</content>
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    <title>NO UPDATE</title>
    <published>2008-05-28T04:53:49Z</published>
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    <content type="html">O kay. So i realize that Nicole hasn't done what i so simply asked her to do which was let you all know that i wasn't going to be able to post yesterday because i was away from my computer and other things came into play which all comes out with the fact that i didn't get to finish the next chapter to Some Thing's You Just Can't Deny. I apologize for it but i promise i will post both this weeks and next weeks chapter - which means, yes, you will be getting to chaps :) - on Monday.</content>
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    <title>Some Thing's You Just Can't Deny</title>
    <published>2008-05-20T05:12:22Z</published>
    <updated>2008-05-20T05:12:22Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Okay guys, so&amp;nbsp;this whole sickness thing isn't working for me because, well, it just sucks. But i'm getting throught it, i hope. *prays*. Anyway, i have the next xhapter all done and reasy for you all but, (yes, there is a but) after this chapter there are only &amp;nbsp;four or five chapters left. *shields self* &amp;nbsp;It's sad to say that yes, this story is coming to a close, and i know it may seem like there's still so many questions that haven't been answered, but trust me, within the last few chapters, everything will be explained. So without further adue, here you go.&lt;br /&gt;-Aly&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a name="cutid1"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;div class="ljcut" text="Chapter Twenty-Three"&gt;&lt;p&gt;Chapter Twenty-Three&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;After arriving back at the hotel and getting Nick situated, I headed straight for my room. I let out a sigh as I close the door and lean against it. I glance at the bed and move towards it, flopping myself onto it. I feel my body relax under me as I get comfortable and then I hear it. God I hate that sound. I groan as I stare at the door, knocking coming from the other side. Finding the strength, I curse and push up off the bed before making my way to the door. “Fucking better be a good reason for making me get up.” I grumble as I reach the door and pull it open. I instantly feel bad for what I said when I see it’s my mom. “Hey mom.” I say with a small smile.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Hey honey.” She says as I let her in and I feel even worse. I’ve been acting like such an ass lately and all she’s been is helpful.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Mom, I‘m sorry about the way I was acting this morning.” I start but she interrupts me with a chuckle.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Oh honey, it‘s nothing new to me.” She says with a warm smile. I smile in return and give a small laugh. “Anyway, I just came by to tell you that I was gonna step out for a little while. Run a few errands.” &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Oh, well I‘ll go with you.” I offer.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Oh no, honey, it‘s okay. I‘ll just be an hour or so, you get some rest. You need it.” My mom says, politely declining my offer.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“You sure?” I ask as she moves to the door.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I‘m sure. Get some rest.” She says, giving me a kiss on the cheek before exiting the room. I smile at my mom and sigh. Turning around, I move back to the bed and fall into it once again.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Hey mom.” I say with a smile as I open the door. Feeling a lot more rested than before.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Hey sweetie. I bought you something.” Denise says holding up the shopping bag.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Mom, you didn‘t have to get me anything.” I say as I close the door and take the bag from her with a smile. I smile wider as I pull out the shirts and hats she got; my mom always did know how to make me feel better. “Thanks mom.” I say with a smile, giving her a hug.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Your welcome sweetie.” Denise says returning the gesture. “Alex…” She says after a few moments.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yeah?” I ask as I begin to fold the shirts back up.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I wanted- ” She’s interrupted by a knock at the door and I look at her. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Sorry Mom, just give me a sec.” I say as I walk over to the door and open it. As I pull open the door I was not prepared for the sight in front of me.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Who put the glad in gladiator?!” Nick shouts as I open the door.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Hercules!” Brian shouts jumping in from the side. All I can do is stare at the two in front of me.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“What the hell?” I ask as I bust up laughing, the scene is just way too funny.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“We were bored and wanted to do something so we figured we‘d brush up on or Disney and what better movie to watch than Hercules?” Nick asks as he moves into the room, Brian right beside him.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Well that‘s one way to make an entrance.” I chuckle as I shake my head and shut the door. “Did you guys tell Howie?” I ask as I walk over to them.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Oh, I guess someone should call him huh?” Brian says looking at Nick. Nick just shrugs in response and walks over to the TV. Brian rolls his eyes at Nick’s actions. “I guess I‘ll call him.” Brian mumbles walking over to the phone. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I chuckle at their antics and then turn to my mom. “Oh, sorry mom, what was it you wanted to say?” I ask, remembering that she was about to say something before Nick and Brian became singing telegrams. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Oh nothing, it can wait.” She says with a smile, walking over to Nick. I watch her as she sits next to Nick and she smiles at me, silently telling me it’s really okay. I shrug and walk over to Brian as he hangs up the phone.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“He‘s on his way.” Brian informs. I nod my head and moments later there’s a knock at the door. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Glad you could join the party.” I say as I open the door, letting Howie inside.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Why is it that I‘m always the last to know things?” Howie asks shaking his head as he walks inside.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I‘m sorry D.” I say with an apologetic smile.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Oh Howard quiet being such a dram queen and come sit down already.” Nick says from his spot on the bed.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Howie mumbles under his breath and walks over to Nick. I laugh as I follow Howie, only catching half of what he said, something about ‘tall blonde people’, and take a seat on the floor beside Brian as the credits begin.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Bless my soul Herc was on a roll…” Brian sings along with the song and I bust up laughing as him and Nick trade off on the lines. They’ve been at this ever since the movie started and I swear I’m gonna end up dying from laughter if they keep doing it.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Who put the glad in gladiator?” Nick sings looking at Brian.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“ Hercules! ” Brian replies and I shake my head as they recite that line.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Herc is a hero, Now he's a hero Yes indeed! ” Nick says with a snap at the end and I can’t take it anymore.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Oh my God. Stop, stop, you guys are gonna kill me.” I pant out as I hunch over with laughter. “Just….wait.” I gasp as I try to gain my composure but it falls apart when I look over at Howie and see him in the exact same state as me.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“It‘s not that funny.” Nick says with a smirk, trying not to laugh.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yes it is.” Howie and I say at the same time. Nick and Brian end up joining in our laughter and I take a deep breath. “Ok. I‘m good.” I say taking another breath. I shake my head as I look at Brian and Nick. “You guys are too much.” I say and glance at my mom seeing her shake her head, a smile on her face. We all quiet down and continue watching the movie. Nick and Brian breaking out into song on cue every time.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;---------------------------------&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/div&gt;</content>
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    <title>Song Fic ----&amp;gt;Safest Place To Hide</title>
    <published>2008-05-15T03:06:59Z</published>
    <updated>2008-05-15T03:16:39Z</updated>
    <content type="html">&lt;font face="Arial" color="#ff0000"&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;This&amp;nbsp;is by far the most cheese-tastic fluff I’ve&amp;nbsp;you'll ever&amp;nbsp;read!....&lt;br /&gt;At least according to Nikki. I hope you enjoy it as much as she did......&lt;br /&gt;-Aly&lt;/font&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;a name="cutid1"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;div class="ljcut" text="Safest Place To Hide"&gt;&lt;font face="Arial"&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;b&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;BACKSTREET BOYS &lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;"Safest Place To Hide"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;“Our anniversary was last week.” Brian says as AJ hands him a soda. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;“Yeah? How many years is that?” AJ asks, taking a drink of his soda, sitting down across from Brian.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Six.” Brian says taking a sip of his soda.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Cool. What‘d you guys do?” AJ asks leaning back in his seat.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Nothing.” Brian says with a shrug, glancing up at AJ.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Nothing?” AJ asks confused.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“I forgot.” Brian says.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“You forgot? How?” AJ asks even more confused, it was never like Brian to forget something that important.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“I guess my mind was just somewhere else.” Brian says with another shrug.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Bri…” AJ says with a sigh.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“I can‘t believe it‘s been six years. It doesn‘t seem like that long. I mean I still remember that day so clearly.” Brian says interrupting AJ, a far away look on his face.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“You were happy.” AJ says with a soft smile.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Yeah, a long time ago.” Brian says with a sigh.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“What do you mean?” AJ asks, leaning forward a bit, shocked to hear that Brian and Leighanne were having problems.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“She thinks we‘re growing apart, and I guess we are if I really think about it. I mean, it‘s just not there anymore.” Brian says.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“What‘s not there?” AJ asks.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“The love.” Brian says, looking at AJ.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“How?”&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Cause it‘s gone to someone else.” Brian replies.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Who?” AJ asks, this is the first time he’s ever heard of Brian being in love with anyone but Leigh.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“You.” Brian says looking into AJ’s eyes.&lt;/font&gt; &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;&lt;font color="#000080"&gt;Yeah, yeah&lt;br /&gt;It seems like yesterday when I said "I do"&lt;br /&gt;And after all this time my heart still burns for you&lt;br /&gt;If you don't know by now that you're my only one&lt;br /&gt;Take a look inside me and watch my heartstrings come undone&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Brian.” AJ says with a sigh, leaning back. “That was a long time ago.” AJ says looking at Brian.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“I know, but I still feel it AJ. I‘m not happy with Leigh like I was with you.” Brian says.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“You‘re just going through a rough patch Bri. You guys will get through it.” AJ says shaking his head.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“No we won‘t. I know it, when you and me said forever, I meant it.” Brian says looking into AJ’s eyes.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Forever disappeared for us Brian.” AJ says.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“No it didn‘t.” Brian says. AJ shakes his head and looks away, not able to look in Brian’s eyes anymore. &lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;&lt;font color="#000080"&gt;I know I promised you forever&lt;br /&gt;Is there no stronger word I can use&lt;br /&gt;To reassure you when the storm is raging outside&lt;br /&gt;You're my safest place to hide&lt;/font&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“I still need you.” Brian continues. “You have no idea how much. You‘re what gets me through everything. It‘s your love.” Brian says trying to catch AJ’s eye.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Brian c‘mon, don‘t do this.” AJ says. &lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;&lt;font color="#003366"&gt;Can you see me, here I am&lt;br /&gt;I need you like I needed you then&lt;br /&gt;When I feel like giving up&lt;br /&gt;I climb inside your heart I still find&lt;br /&gt;You're my safest place to hide&lt;/font&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“You see me AJ. You know me better than anyone else.” Brian says.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“We‘ve gone through a lot with each other.” AJ reasons, not denying it.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Exactly. We‘ve been through more things together than most people should.” Brian says, finally catching AJ’s eye.&lt;em&gt; &lt;/em&gt;&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;&lt;font color="#000080"&gt;You see colors no one else can see&lt;br /&gt;In every breath you hear a symphony&lt;br /&gt;You understand me like nobody can&lt;br /&gt;I feel like my soul unfolding like a flower blooming&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“You‘re the one I can turn to when everything‘s going so wrong. You‘re the one who make all right.” Brian says. “You get me back on track when I‘m lost. You‘re home.” Brian says, moving to sit by AJ. &lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;AJ scoots over away from Brian, shaking his head, looking away again. &lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;&lt;font color="#000080"&gt;When this whole world gets too crazy&lt;br /&gt;And there's nowhere left to go&lt;br /&gt;I know you give me sanctuary&lt;br /&gt;You're the only truth I know&lt;br /&gt;You're the road back home&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“AJ, look at me. I still love you. I‘ve always loved you; since the beginning.” Brian says, grabbing AJ’s face, turning his head so he could look into his eyes. Wanting AJ to see the truth behind his words.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“I can‘t.” AJ says shaking his head. “I can‘t.” AJ says again.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“AJ.” Brian says, pulling AJ into a hug, wrapping himself around him. “Why not? Let me inside.”&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/font&gt;&lt;em&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;font face="Arial" color="#000080"&gt;&lt;em&gt;Can you see me, here I am&lt;br /&gt;Standing here where I've always been&lt;br /&gt;And when words are not enough&lt;br /&gt;I climb inside your heart I'd still find&lt;br /&gt;You're my safest place to hide&lt;br /&gt;My safest place to hide&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/font&gt;&lt;font face="Arial"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/font&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Forever doesn‘t exist with us.” AJ says against Brian shoulder.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“This time it will.” Brian says pulling back to look into AJ’s eyes.&lt;/font&gt; &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;&lt;font color="#000080"&gt;I know I promised you forever&lt;br /&gt;There's no stronger word I can use&lt;br /&gt;To reassure when the storm is raging outside&lt;br /&gt;You're my safest place to hide&lt;/font&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“How?” AJ asks still not believing Brian’s words.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Because, there‘s nowhere else I‘d rather be than in your arms and in your heart. You’re my safest place to hide.” Brian whispers before leaning in and placing a gentle kiss on AJ’s lips.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;em&gt;&lt;font color="#000080"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Oh! Can you see me, here I am&lt;br /&gt;Standing here where I've always been&lt;br /&gt;When I feel like giving up&lt;br /&gt;I climb inside your heart I'd still find&lt;br /&gt;Yeah, yeah&lt;br /&gt;You're my safest place to hide, oh yeah&lt;br /&gt;You're my safest place to hide&lt;/font&gt;&lt;font face="Arial" color="#ff0000"&gt;&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/b&gt;&lt;/font&gt;&lt;font face="Arial" color="#000080"&gt;&lt;/font&gt;&lt;font face="Arial"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/font&gt;&lt;font face="Arial" color="#000080"&gt;&lt;/font&gt;&lt;font face="Arial"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;i&gt;&lt;i&gt;&lt;i&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/i&gt;&lt;/i&gt;&lt;/i&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/font&gt;&amp;nbsp;</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:smerky13:15155</id>
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    <title>Some Thing's You Just Can't Deny</title>
    <published>2008-05-13T04:58:38Z</published>
    <updated>2008-05-13T04:58:38Z</updated>
    <content type="html">I'm doing this cuz i love you guys. I should be passed out in my bed cause i'm not feeling good, but i remembered i had to post so i dragged my but outta bed and came to do it. so, here you guys go.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a name="cutid1"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;div class="ljcut" text="Chapter Twenty-Two"&gt;&lt;p&gt;Chapter Twenty-Two&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Guys!” I hear Nick frantically yell. Hearing the slight panic in his voice I quickly finish pulling on my shirt and open my door. As I look out, I see Brian and Howie’s head out as well, looking at them for some sort of explanation they both shrug.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“What‘s going on Nick?” Brian asks from his door.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Um, what do rabbits eat?” Nick asks running his hands through his hair.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Well, they like grass and fruits.” Howie says, leaning against his door frame.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yeah or vegetables like celery and carrots, stuff like that.” I tell him. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Oh…” Nick says trailing off, glancing behind him.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Nick, what‘d you do?” I ask, seeing the look on Nick’s face.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Nothing!” Nick says quickly. I look at him and he begins to fidget. “You sure they can‘t eat anything else?” Nick asks after a few moments, avoiding my eyes.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Nick, what did you give the rabbit?” Brian asks, taking a step towards Nick.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Well, I figured he ate the same things I did so I just gave him some Lucky Charms, and now he‘s flipping out.” Nick says, looking back into his room.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“You gave him Lucky Charms?!” Howie asks, quickly moving away from his door and over to Nick’s. Brian and I follow Howie’s actions and look in Nick’s room. I shake my head at the scene before me. Nick’s rabbit is running back and forth throughout the room and he looks like he’s on crack.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I only gave him a little bit.” Nick says in an attempt to defend his actions.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Nick, you don’t give a rabbit Lucky Charms.” Brian says, still staring at the fastly moving rabbit.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“What the hell possessed you to give him Lucky Charms?” Howie asks shaking his head, looking at Nick.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“He looked hungry. What the hell was I supposed to do Howard?” Nick asks, getting a little more defensive, his voice rising.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Well not give him Lucky Charms, that‘s for damn sure.” Howie says, his voice also rising.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Well….” I loose track of the argument as everyone’s voices becomes one big noise and shake my head.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Fucking hell. C‘mon” I say, going into my room and quickly grabbing my keys from the table before heading for the elevator.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Um, Jay, where are we going?” Nick asks after a few moments.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Fucking PetsMart.” I reply, pushing the call button for the elevator.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Okay.” Nick says shrugging and walking over beside me.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Um, Jay, shouldn‘t we tell your mom?” Howie asks slowly. I turn and glare at him. “Okay.” Howie says before turning and walking to Denise’s door.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Dude! Look!” Nick exclaims as he runs over to snake section. “Oh, I want one of those.”&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“NO!” Everyone yells at him.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“What?” Nick asks looking at us all.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Just, no. C‘mon, let‘s get your damn rabbit food already.” I tell him as I lead the guys to the bunny section.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“So…. What do we get?” Brian asks, looking at all the stuff.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I‘m not sure….” Howie says, scanning all the merchandise. “Food I guess.” Howie says picking up a bag. “How about this?”&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Dude, no, that looks like fucking baby puke.” Nick says, making a face.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Well I‘m sure it‘s better for him than Lucky Charms.” Howie points out.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Here we go with the damn cereal thing again.” Nick says rolling his eyes.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Jesus Christ will you two shut the hell up already? You sound like a fucking old married couple.” I yell at them.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“We do not!” Howie and Nick yell at the same time.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I’m about to say something back when I’m interrupted by my mom’s voice. “Boys!” She yells, grabbing all of our attention. We turn around to face her and I see her standing with one of the workers and she smiles. “You welcome.” She says before walking away. We all watch as she walks out of view and then turn back to the guy in front of us.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Hey man.” I say as I walk up to the guy.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Hey.” He says with a smile. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I smile back and glance down at his name tag before looking back at him. “Brett?” He nods and I continue talking. “Alright, well we had a few questions about some things.” &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Okay.” Brett says.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Well, my friend Nick here bought a bunny the other day and we had a few questions.” I inform him.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Okay, well what do you guys wanna know.” Brett asks crossing his arms, looking at us all. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Well, for starters, what‘s the best thing to feed them?” I ask, figuring it’s be better to start from the beginning.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Well hay for starters would be good. It‘s good for their digestive systems.” Brett says. “Or fruits and vegetables are good too.” &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I nod my head in response and look over at Brian when he begins to speak. “What about baths? Do they take baths?”&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yeah, you can give them powder baths.” Brett says, looking at Brian as he answers his question.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Do they sleep with their eyes open?” Nick asks all of a sudden. Well all turn and look at him like he’s crazy. “What? I‘m serious.” Nick says.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“No, they don‘t sleep with their eyes open.” Brett says with a chuckle.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“How often do you have to clean their cages?” Howie asks.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Like every week or two weeks. I recommend once a week for the smell.” Brett says. “Well, what do you have? Like is it a girl or a boy?” &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“A boy.” We all answer.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Okay, well I‘d suggest a lining for the cage.” Brett says.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Lining?” I ask.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yeah, ‘cause males will spray.” &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Spray what?” We all ask, completely confused.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Um, urine.” Brett explains with an amused smile.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Oh.” We all say. Brett laughs and nods, still smiling. “Okay, well, thanks for all your help.” I say with a nod.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“No problem. You guys have any more questions don‘t hesitate to ask.” Brett says before walking away.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Okay, cool.” I say, walking back over to the bunny section. “Alright, so he said hay, bath stuff, cage lining, and food.” I say, listing off all the items as I hand them to the guys. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Should we get more bedding? What about a carrying cage?” Nick asks, looking at all the guys.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yeah, that sounds good.” Brian says with a nod.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Nick nods back and goes around to the next aisle grabbing the bedding. “Okay, carrying cage.” Nick says, looking at the guys expectantly.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I think they‘re over here.” Howie says, going into the next aisle.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Whoa, dude, look at this?” Nick says pointing at a feather boa. “What the hell? They making kinky toys for dogs now?” Nick asks, grabbing a whip looking thing.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I don‘t know….” Howie says, trailing off, looking at the items. “Just, don‘t touch it.” He says shaking his head.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Dude, quit your shit.” I tell Nick, pushing his hand away as he rubs my face with the boa.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Nick just laughs and puts the item back before turning around. “Oh, look. Carrying cases.”&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I sigh as we exit the store. “You got everything?” I ask turning to Nick.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yeah.” Nick says nodding his head, a smile on his face.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Good. Now don‘t fucking ask me to anything for you again.” I say walking to my car.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Aw, thanks buddy.” Nick says rubbing my shoulder as we get into the car.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Fuck you.” I reply, turning on the car.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Love you too Aje.” Nick says with a cheesy smile.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I smile despite myself and shake my head. “Lord…” I mumble before pulling out of the parking lot and heading back to the hotel.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;----------------------------------&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;</content>
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    <title>Some Thing's You Just Can't Deny</title>
    <published>2008-05-06T05:37:22Z</published>
    <updated>2008-05-06T07:04:52Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Alright here you go. Hope you enjoy. It's a little short though, just to give you guys a heads up.&lt;br /&gt;-Aly&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a name="cutid1"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;div class="ljcut" text="Chapter Twenty-One"&gt;&lt;p&gt;Chapter Twenty - One&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“So, where am I going exactly?” I ask as I realize I have no real destination. I’m met with a chorus of I don’t knows and I sigh. “Well, that helped a lot.” My mom chuckles and I glare at her. “Alright, what do you guys want? Mexican, Chinese, Italian, American…. What?” I’m met with yet, another chorus of I don’t cares and I sigh once again in frustration. “Fine, never mind. We‘re eating Mexican.” I say as I swiftly turn into the plaza where the Macayos is. I glance at everyone through the mirror and see them nodding their heads and I shake mine. “Damn people can‘t make up their minds…” I mumble quietly before parking and opening the door.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I heard that mister.” Denise says as she opens her door.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Well, it‘s true.” I say with a pout and she just laughs and links her arm in mine.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“C‘mon.” She says pulling me towards the entrance, the guys following behind us.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Five.” I say to the hostess as she grabs some menus and walks us to a table towards the back.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Why‘d she sit us all the way in the back?” Nick asks once the hostess started to walk back to her post.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Because they don‘t want you to disturb the other guests.” I say in a smart ass tone as I look over my menu, smirking when I glance up to see Nick glaring at me.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“You’re lucky you‘re sitting all the way over there, otherwise I‘d smack you.” Nick states as he glares at me from across the table.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“It‘s okay, I got my mom and Brian.” I point out, sticking out my tongue as I drape my arm across Brian’s shoulders. Nick glares harder at me as I continue to smile back at him.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Alright guys, let‘s just calm down and try to have a peaceful dinner okay?” Howie says as he picks up his menu.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Jesus, D, you sound like my mother.” I say moving my arm away from Brian. It takes a few seconds, but what I just said clicks in my head and I look up at my mom. “Uh…” I say with a sheepish smile. “I love you mom.” I say with a smile. She just swats my arm and says an uh-huh before picking up her menu. “Ow! I was only joking. It was a reflex. You don‘t gotta go smacking me.” I mumble. “Shut up Nick.” I glare at him as he laughs at me. Nick quiets down and looks over his menu as I’m still shaking my head.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;With a pout I pick up my menu and begin reading it. “Quit pouting already.” Brian says nudging my leg with his. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I‘m not.” I say defensively. Brian gives me a ‘yeah right’ look and I sigh. “Fine.” I say putting a fake smile on my face. “That better?” I ask sarcastically.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Perfect.” Brian says with a smile. I chuckle and break out into a real smile as I shake my head at Brian.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“So what are you getting?” I ask as I lean over to look at Brian’s menu.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I‘m not sure yet….” Brian says trailing off, his eyes scanning the menu.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Oh, can I have a bite?” Brian asks, leaning over my plate as he sees what I’m eating. I smile and hold out the fork of food for him. Brian smiles before taking the bite. “Hm, that‘s really good.” Brian says, nodding his head. I nod and look at him expectantly. Brian looks at me for a few seconds before rolling his eyes and laughing. Turning back to his plate, Brian picks up a forkful and holds in out for me. I smile and take the bite before pulling back.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Mine‘s still better.” I say with a smirk, shrugging my shoulders.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yeah, it is.” Brian says, grabbing his fork and taking another bite.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Hey, hey, hey. You asked for a bite, not if I‘d share with you.” I tell him, playfully pushing his hand away from my food.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“But yours tastes better.” Brian whines, giving me a puppy dog look.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Ugh, fine.” I grumble, rolling my eyes. “I hate it when you do that.” I tell him as he takes another bite, pushing his plate aside, moving mine in the middle of us.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“It‘s because it always works.” Brian says with a cocky grin.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I know. That‘s why I hate it.” I tell him with a smile. Brian smiles back and continues to eat. “Will you save some for me? Jesus, eat the whole thing why don‘t you.” I tell him, moving his fork away as I take a bite. Brian and I continue to playfully argue over my food until the last bite. “No, that‘s mine.” I say pushing his fork away from the last piece of food on the plate.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Nut-uh. Mine.” Brian says, pushing my fork away.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Brian.”&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“AJ.”&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“This was my plate first.”&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“So?” Brian says looking at me. I stop and look back at him. I suddenly don’t know what to say and he smiles at my loss for a comeback.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“It‘s still mine.” I say finally.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Look, I‘ll make it even.” Brian says, cutting the last piece in half and pushing part of it towards me. “There. Happy?” Brian says, picking up his piece.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Perfect.” I say, mimicking his words from before. He laughs and shakes his head before popping his food into his mouth. I laugh too as I eat my last bite, glancing up to see my mom looking at us with a gentle smile on her face. I look at her and she catches my eye. She smiles softly at me and I return the gesture, before she looks away, back over at Nick who started to tell one of his stories. I look at my mom a little longer before turning to pay attention to Nick. Something about the look in her eye was setting me a little uneasy. I brush my thoughts aside, figuring I’d ask her about it later, and turn back towards Nick’s story the middle.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“And then AJ gets his foot stuck in the hole and starts freaking out. Yelling and screaming that something got him and won‘t let him go so we all run over there and he‘s frantically pulling at his leg, trying to get his foot out.” Nick says laughing hysterically. “I swear, it was the funniest thing in the world, cuz then Brian just knelt down beside him and turned his leg to the side and pulled his foot out. And AJ‘s brilliant reply was ‘Oh‘. Oh my God Denise, you should have been there….” Nick says, wiping the tears from his eyes.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“It wasn‘t funny. I swear to go God I felt something pull my foot down.” I defend myself, though there’s a smile on my face.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Jay, c‘mon, there was nothing down there. You tripped and got your foot stuck, and then Brian had to go and save you.” Nick says with a smirk.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yeah, well at least he helped and didn‘t just stand there laughing his ass off like you.” I point out with a playful glare. “Even D helped get me ice.” I add.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Whatever dude, it was too funny and you know it.” Nick says. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I shake my head and chuckle at his laughter. “Ass.”&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;--------------------------------------&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&amp;nbsp;</content>
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    <title>Video</title>
    <published>2008-05-02T05:47:57Z</published>
    <updated>2008-05-02T05:47:57Z</updated>
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    <content type="html">&lt;p&gt;So, this post is mainly for those of you who are both an Arok fan and a Nick&amp;amp;Greg fan.&lt;br /&gt;I hope you enjoy this video as much as i did.....&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;a name="cutid1"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;div class="ljcut" text="One great video....."&gt;&lt;a href="http://youtube.com/watch?v=j2LM0IQ821Q&amp;amp;feature=related"&gt;http://youtube.com/watch?v=j2LM0IQ821Q&amp;amp;feature=related&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:smerky13:14397</id>
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    <title>Sick Day</title>
    <published>2008-05-02T05:40:08Z</published>
    <updated>2008-05-02T05:40:08Z</updated>
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    <content type="html">So i'm a total spas because i thought i posted this when i was finished writing it but i guess i didn't... but it's okay cuz i'm doing it now. Here in the link below is a smut filled story that i hope you will all enjoy.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Title: Sick Day&lt;br /&gt;Pairing: Arok&lt;br /&gt;Raiting: NC-17 smut, smut,smut&lt;br /&gt;Summary: Brian and AJ call in "sick"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a name="cutid1"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;div class="ljcut" text="“Alex you know I want to.” Brian starts. “C‘mon Bri, I‘ll make it worth your while.” AJ whispers "&gt;&lt;p&gt;“No, don‘t.” AJ says, wrapping his arms around Brian, stopping him from trying to get out of bed.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Alex…” Brian chuckles, halfheartedly trying to pull away from AJ.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“No.” AJ says again, wrapping his legs around Brian and snuggling into him. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Brian laughs out loud as AJ wraps himself around him. “AJ, you know we gotta go in today.”&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“No we don‘t. Call Howie, tell him we‘re sick and can‘t come in today. Let‘s just stay here. Just like this.” AJ says snuggling in deeper, burying his head in the crook of Brian’s neck.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Alex you know I want to.” Brian starts.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“C‘mon Bri, I‘ll make it worth your while.” AJ whispers seductively in Brian’s ear, gently biting down on his neck.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Brian takes in a short breath at the sudden contact. His neck is one of his spots and damn if AJ didn’t use it against him. As AJ moves his leg in between Brian’s legs, Brian moans at the feeling of AJ’s thigh rubbing against his hardening cock. “I guess we can call in.” Brian says through soft moans. AJ just nods his head as he trails kisses down Brian’s chest. Reaching out, Brian idly feels for the phone. As his fingers close over the phone, he quickly dials the familiar number.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Hey man, what‘s up?” The voice on the other end says upon answering the phone.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Nick.” Brian says, biting back a moan as AJ nips at his nipple. “Me and AJ… we‘re not… feeling too good…not gonna be able to come in today.” Brian finally gets out through shallow gasps of air.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yeah, alright, whatever you say Bri.” Brian smiles as he hears the smirk in Nick’s voice. No doubt that he’s gonna end up telling Howie exactly why they’re not coming in today. “I‘ll let Howie know.” Nick says before hanging up. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Brian quickly puts the phone back in its cradle and turns back to look at AJ. Brian moans loudly as AJ once again bites down on his nipple. “Alex…” Brian breathes out, and AJ lifts his head to look at Brian.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Placing his hand behind his neck, Brian roughly pulls AJ down for a heated kiss. Wasting no time, Brian automatically opens his mouth to AJ’s probing tongue, moaning softly as AJ explores his mouth. Pulling back for some much needed air, Brian moans again as AJ attacks his neck with kisses.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;As AJ sucks and kisses Brian’s neck, he slowly moves his hands down Brian’s sides and over his quivering stomach, down to the waistband of his boxers. In one quick motion, AJ dips his hands into Brian’s boxers and slides them down his legs.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Brian moans loudly at the feeling of skin against skin. ‘When did he get naked?’ Brian wonders to himself as AJ grind down against his hips. The sudden pleasure the friction causes makes Brian completely loose all train of thought. “Alex.” Brian moans AJ name softly.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;AJ smiles, hearing Brian says his name, he loves the way Brian says his name when they’re in bed, husky, full of lust and need. “Alex, please.” Brian begs, snapping AJ out of his daze. AJ smiles again as Brian whimpers, bucking his hips up trying to get some sort of contact from AJ’s stilled form.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Tell me what you want Bri.” AJ whispers, delving his tongue in Brian’s navel and up his chest.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I - I - want you.” Brian pants out. Trembling at the feeling of AJ’s tongue sliding back down his chest.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“What do you want me to do to you Brian?” AJ asks, his voice laced with lust. He wants to hear Brian say it, wants to hear Brian beg for him.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Touch me, suck me, Jesus, just do something.” Brian pleads, close to tears. He’s so hard it hurts and if AJ doesn’t start touching him right this second, Brian’s gonna break.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Brian doesn’t have to wait long though as AJ smiles at the desperate tone in his lovers voice and finally grasps Brian’s shaft, stroking slowly.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Brian gasps at the contact and bucks up. He feels AJ start to suck on his right nipple, biting down and blowing on it, erasing the sting, repeating the action to his left one. Moving farther down, AJ presses butterfly kisses down Brian’s abs and his hip bones until he reaches his cock.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;AJ teasingly licks the head of Brian’s cock, still pumping slowly, watching as Brian squirms underneath him. AJ presses his tongue into the slit of Brian’s cock, eliciting a hiss from Brian. Taking mercy, AJ engulfs Brian’s cock in his mouth and begins bobbing his head down the shaft. As AJ sucks Brian’s cock deeper down his throat, he moves his hand up Brian chest, over his nipples and to his lips, slipping his fingers into Brian’s mouth, getting the nice and wet.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;AJ pulls his spit-slick fingers form Brian’s mouth and feels Brian open his legs wider in invitation as AJ places his fingers at Brian’s opening. Slowly, AJ gently pushes his fingers inside.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Brian gasps as AJ’s fingers slide inside him. Brian’s breath begins to quicken as AJ’s mouth and fingers speed up some. Brian moans loudly as AJ’s fingers twist, brushing against his prostate. “Oh God, Alex…” Brian groans, thrusting up into AJ’s mouth, pushing back on his fingers. Torn between the tow sensations, the pleasure becoming too much. “Alex… I … I‘m gonna….” Brian hopes AJ understood his warning because he can’t get the rest out because he’s already cuming, shooting out hot bursts of cum against his stomach and AJ’s lips.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;AJ smiles, licking his lips before moving to his knees and wiping up Brian’s cum with his hand, spreading it over his cock. AJ looks up and nearly cums at the sight in front of him. Brian’s body is flushed all over, glistening with sweat and cum. His hair mated down to his forehead, his eyes dark with desire. AJ stops touching himself and spreads Brian’s legs wider, positioning himself at Brian’s entrance. AJ meets Brian’s eyes, waiting for Brian’s approval before going further. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Brian nods in response and pulls his knees up towards his chest. AJ nods and begins to slowly push inside. Once AJ’s completely inside, the two men let out identical moans. Bracing his arms on either side of Brian, AJ beings to slowly thrust in and out of Brian’s tight heat.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Brian’s eyes roll into the back of his head as AJ begins to move inside him. Brian runs his hands up AJ’s arms, his fingers running over hard muscle and tattoos, and into AJ’s hair, pulling him down for another kiss. Pushing past AJ’s lips, Brian slips his tongue inside AJ’s mouth, tasting every inch. Pulling back for air, Brian begins panting as AJ speed up his thrusts. “Harder Alex, harder.” Brian gasps out pulling AJ’s body lose to him. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;AJ complies, thrusting harder and faster into Brian, a sheen of sweat breaking out across his skin. AJ knows he’s close to the edge. Having Brain’s hot, flushed body underneath him, hearing Brian’s sex laced voice in his ear, moaning at every tap against his prostate is enough to set AJ off edge. Gripping Brian’s cock in his hand he begins to pump it in time with his thrusts. “Cum for me Bri. Cum for me.” Brian’s cuming before AJ can even finish whispering. Feeling Brian’s wall constrict around his cock, AJ thrusts harder and faster, screaming Brian’s name as he comes hard.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Brian moans, shudders and comes again at the feeling of AJ cuming against his prostate, making him go into sensory overload, surprising both of them. As the waves of his orgasm pass over him, AJ collapses on top of Brian, panting hard, trying to catch his breath. “Jesus.” AJ mumbles, moving to pull out of Brian, but stops when he feels Brian’s legs warp around him.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Don‘t.” Brian whispers and AJ smiles. Lifting his head AJ looks into Brian’s eyes, smiling at the love he sees shinning in Brian’s eyes. As AJ leans down to press a soft sensual kiss to Brian’s lips, the sound of his and Brian’s answering machine makes them pull apart.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“AJ! Brian! C‘mon guys, you can‘t possibly still be having sex…” AJ and Brian laugh, hearing Nick’s voice coming form the machine. Shaking his head, AJ looks down at Brian. “Where were we?” AJ says, cupping Brian’s face, kissing him once again. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;font color="#ff0000"&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:smerky13:14265</id>
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    <title>Some Thing's You Just Can't Deny</title>
    <published>2008-04-29T06:44:46Z</published>
    <updated>2008-04-29T06:44:46Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Alrighty guys, here's the next&amp;nbsp;chapter to the story. Hope you enjoy.&lt;br /&gt;Hugs and Kisses&lt;br /&gt;-Aly&amp;nbsp;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a name="cutid1"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;div class="ljcut" text="Chapter Twenty"&gt;&lt;p&gt;Chapter Twenty&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Hey Bri, will you close the door so I can let him out for a little while?” Nick asks as he moves to take the rabbit out of the box. Brian closes the door and walks back to the small circle we’ve made around Nick’s bed.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;After arriving back at the hotel from the mall we all dropped our stuff off in our rooms and then came into Nick’s room to look at the bunny. I watch Nick as he gently takes out the bunny and sets him down on the floor. We all just stand there watching as the bunny sniffs the air and then begins to hop around the room, exploring his new environment.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Alright, let‘s get his cage set up.” Nick says grabbing all of our attention. Nick moves and grabs the box with the cage in it and dumps out the contents on the bed. Grabbing a piece of paper, Nick scans it before tossing it over his shoulder.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Wha- Nick were those the instructions?” I ask looking down at the paper on the floor.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“We don’t need them, I mean, who uses instructions?” Nick says rolling his eyes and picking up a piece of the cage. “I got this.” Oh and wasn’t that the biggest lie in the world.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Nick! What the hell? That doesn‘t go there!” Howie yells, pushing Nick’s hands away.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yes it does!” Nick argues.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“AJ what are you doing? Stop touching it.” Nick says, hitting Brian’s hands.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I‘m trying to fix the damn thing, shut the hell up.” I say hitting Nick back.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Brian, will you stop, I swear to God I‘m gonna bite you if you don‘t.” I tell him as Brian, for the tenth time, moves the half assembled cage around.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“You wouldn‘t.” Brian states, moving it again.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Do it again and see what happens.” I warn looking at him. I loose track of our conversation as we all begin to yell at each other and our voices sound like one huge blur. It’s been a half hour since we first started trying to put this damn cage together and so far we’ve gotten one side half up. I close my eyes and shake my head, finally having enough with all the damn arguing. “Will everybody just shut the fuck up already!” I yell and everyone quiets down to look at me. “Finally.” I say with a frustrated sigh. “Nick, where the hell are the instructions?” I ask looking at him.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I told you, we don‘t need them.” Nick says, crossing his arms and shaking his head.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Nick just give him the damn instructions.” Howie says angrily.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“No, we don‘t need them.” Nick says again. This breaks us all into another argument. Each of us yelling at Nick to give us the instructions. In the midst of the whole argument, I see my mom quietly nudge her way into our circle and watch as she calmly puts together the cage. The rest of the guys quiet as they too see my mom putting the cage together. In a matter of minutes, my mom has the cage standing and all secure, with everything set. We all stare at her as she stands back and smile at her work before turning looking at us.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Shall we go to dinner now?” She asks, the smile still on her face.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“How the hell.…” I trail off, looking at my mother in disbelief.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Instructions.” She says, tossing the paper at me. “I‘m gonna go get ready.” She says before walking out the door. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I look down at the cage, then at the instructions and finally at Nick. “I guess we could‘ve used the instructions.” Nick says with a shrug. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;It takes all of me not to lean over and smack the shit outta him, but then I glance over and see Brian and Howie with pissed off looks on their faces and shake my head. “Just get the damn bunny.” I tell Nick, rolling my eyes.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Nick nods and then starts to look for the bunny. “Hey Rok, he‘s right there, get him.” Nick says after a few moments. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Brian bends to grab the rabbit and at the last second it takes off running to the opposite end of the room. Nick whips his head around as he chases the rabbit. “Jesus Christ, that little fucker is fast!” Nick says as the bunny runs under the bed.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I groan as I bend down to help try to catch the rabbit. I never knew how many men it took to catch a fucking rabbit but it’s obviously more than four because ten minutes later, the stupid bunny is back under the bed where we can’t reach him. “Alright, Nick, try pushing him this way.” I instruct as I kneel down, my hand stretched out, ready to catch the bunny.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Okay.” Nick says, gently pushing the bunny towards me with a stick.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Bri, Howie, if it runs out, catch the damn thing.” I tell them. “Okay, a little more…. A little more….” I instruct Nick.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I can‘t go anymore god dammit!” Nick yells. I roll my eyes and stretch my hand out a little farther.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I got him.” I say as I grab hold of the bunny and pull him out. “Ugh, fucking bunny.” I groan as I get up and place the rabbit inside his cage. “Making me crawl with my bad knee…”&lt;font color="#ff0000"&gt; &lt;/font&gt;I mumble as I place the cage on the table. “C‘mon, let‘s get the hell outta here. I‘m hungry.” I grumble, moving towards the door. Brian pats me on my back as we exit Nick’s room and I glare at him. He just laughs and I shake my head. “Stupid bunny…” I mumble.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Nick, what are you gonna name him?” Brian asks Nick as we head to the restaurant.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I don‘t know.” I glance at Nick through the review mirror, my eyes flicking back and forth between him and the road. “I know. Paco.” Nick says after a few moments.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Paco?” We all ask in unison as I stare at him through the mirror.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yeah like Paco the… how do you say bunny in Spanish?” Nick’s met with blank stares and he just shakes his head.&lt;font color="#ff0000"&gt; &lt;/font&gt;“Whatever it doesn‘t matter. His name‘s still Paco.”&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I shake my head and look over at my mom in the passenger seat. She just smiles and pats my leg as I continue to drive.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;-----------------------------------------&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/div&gt;</content>
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    <title>Some Thing's You Just Can't Deny</title>
    <published>2008-04-22T06:14:05Z</published>
    <updated>2008-04-22T06:14:05Z</updated>
    <content type="html">&lt;p&gt;So, i'm gonna keep this short and sweet. Here you guys go.&amp;nbsp;&lt;br /&gt;-Aly&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;a name="cutid1"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;div class="ljcut" text="Chapter Nineteen"&gt;&lt;p&gt;Chapter Nineteen&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Whoa, look at that!” Nick exclaims as he runs over to a stack of hats. “This is the biggest hat I‘ve ever seen.” He points out as he picks up a big, bright pink hat with flowers and ribbon pilled on top of it and puts it on.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Jesus Christ Nick! Do you gotta touch everything?” Howie asks shaking his head.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Oh, shit, dude, that‘s so funny….I gotta get a picture.” I say as I struggles to breathe. Pulling out my phone, I snap a quick picture of Nick. Nick begins to take off the hat as Howie starts to lecture him about not touching things, but soon gets distracted by something else and moves towards it. I watch as Howie follows Nick, warning him not to touch whatever he’s about to touch and I bust up laughing once more. Maybe bringing Nick into a Macy’s wasn’t such a good idea. I chuckle at the memory of Nick with the hat on and glance around the shop. I notice that me and Brian are the only ones left standing. “Hey, where‘d my mom go?” I ask Brian, turning in a small circle to surveillance the place a bit.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Um, I‘m not sure…” Brian says trailing off, looking around as well. “Wanna look for her?” Brian offers.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yeah, you go that way and I‘ll go this way.” I tell him pointing into different directions. Brian nods and starts walking into the direction I pointed him towards. As I walk down the aisles, searching for my mother, I find myself in front of a section of assorted colognes, right across from the make-up department. A name of a cologne catches my eye and being the ever curious person I am, I pick up the bottle. As I’m move to spray a bit of the cologne, I hear my name being called and turn around.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Hey, AJ, your mom is - Ow!” Brian yells as I face him, accidentally spraying the cologne in his eyes. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Oh shit, Brian man, I‘m sorry.” I apologize, quickly putting the bottle down and turning back to Brian. I can’t help but bust up laughing as I see Brian standing there frantically rubbing at his eye.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Jesus, that shit burns. It‘s not funny.” Brian yells. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Well if you would stop rubbing your eyes and let me see….” I tell him, trying to move his hands away, still laughing. Brian reluctantly stops rubbing and moves his hand away from his face. “It‘s just a little red…” I trail off as I open his eye and gently blow in it to relieve some of the pain. “There.” I say pulling back some to look at Brian. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;As AJ and Brian stare at each other, Denise, Nick and Howie all glance at each other, having noticed the interaction between the two men. After glancing at one another, they all turn their attention back to Brian and AJ without a word.&lt;font color="#ff0000"&gt; &lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Um, thanks.” Brian says awkwardly as we pull away. I feel my cheeks warm slightly as I move away from him. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Uh, so, what was it you were gonna tell me?” I ask him, glancing up.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Oh, uh, that your mom was over there.” I follow his line of vision and see my mom, Howie and Nick all standing not too far away, their eyes focused on us. I feel my cheeks warm even more as I think about how we must’ve looked when I see the smirk on Nick’s face.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“You okay there Bri?” Nick asks Brian, the smirk still on his face.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yes.” Brian mumbles before turning to exit the store. “Just remind me not to go near AJ again when he‘s got something in his hands.”&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Oh! Puppies!” Nick exclaims as we walk towards the Animal Kingdom. I laugh as I see Nick hurry into the store towards the back, looking at all the animals, before I enter the store with everyone else.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Guys, I want a puppy.” Nick proclaims as he taps on the glass separating him from the little black puppy in front of him.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Nick, you can‘ get a puppy. Puppies don’t go well with our lifestyle. They need space to run around and have some sort of freedom. They can’t be locked up in a cage all the time.” Howie says, being the voice of reason.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;As Howie says this Nick looks past him and smiles as Howie finishes. “No. But a bunny can.” Nick says with a huge smile. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“What? Nick no. you can‘t get a bunny.” Howie says, following Nick to the middle of the store where a bunch of rabbits are displayed.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Why not? You said so yourself D, that puppies take a lot of work. Besides, if I get a bunny I won‘t have to do anything. Clean it‘s cage, fine, give it water, okay, let it run around a little bit, that‘s cool. See it all works out.” Nick says with a shrug.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“He does have a point D.” I say as I walk up next to Nick, having heard the conversation.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“What? Since when did you come into this conversation?” Howie asks.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Since I heard Nick say he wanted a bunny.” I tell him with a shrug, turning to examine the bunnies.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Fine! If you lose the damn thing you better not come asking me to help find it.” Howie says irritably, walking off.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yeah, love you too D. Thanks.” Nick says, not taking his eyes away from the bunnies in the case.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Dude! Look that one has eyeliner!” I exclaim, pointing to the white rabbit in the middle.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Hm, it has blue eyes too. Kinda looks like you and Brian….” &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Shut up.” I tell him with a glare. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Maybe you should get that one. You can name it Arok, like that fan-fiction pairing of you and Bri.” Nick says with a nudge.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“What? Dude….” I say shaking my head. Though the idea lingers in my thoughts. Something else seems to stick out from Nick’s earlier statement. “How the hell do you know about that?” I ask, turning to look at him.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Know about what?” Nick asks, his eyes still on the bunnies.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“The fan-fiction.” &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Who doesn‘t know about it? It‘s all over the net. Remember when they used to ask us about it. Well I checked it out one day. The pairings are kinda funny. The names at least. And don‘t tell me you‘ve never read one about you and Bri. I know you have.” Nick says, giving me a look.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“What? How?” I ask, shocked.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I saw it on your computer.” Nick shrugs.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Dude, what the hell?” I ask, slapping him on the shoulder.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Ow, what? It was a long time ago. I told you I read between the lines, and your computer, that actually helped a lot you know. I never knew you had that many pictures of you guys on there.” Nick says with a smirk.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Okay. No more borrowing my stuff. Especially my computer.” I tell him with another glare.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Hey man, I was just saying…”&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yeah, yeah, just chose your damn bunny already.” &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I want that one.” Nick says pointing to a light brown and white bunny.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“The one that‘s been spasing out?” I ask, making sure.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yeah.” Nick nods.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yeah. I guess it suits you.” I tell him with nod.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;font color="#ff0000"&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/font&gt;&lt;p&gt;As we exit the mall I turn to Nick and laugh. “Dude, I can‘t believe you bought a bunny.” Nick just grins this big cheesy, kool-aid grin in response.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;----------------------------------------&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/div&gt;</content>
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    <title>Some Thing's You Just Can't Deny</title>
    <published>2008-04-16T05:08:00Z</published>
    <updated>2008-04-16T05:08:00Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Sorry i didn't post this&amp;nbsp;yesterday. i wasn't feeling too good so i took a nap and&amp;nbsp;woke up kinda late and i spased and forgot. But it's&amp;nbsp;here, only a day late. It's not much, but it's getting there. We may be rounding the end here pretty soon, but don't worry. i have a few other stories in the works. But for now, here's the next chapter. Enjoy.&lt;br /&gt;Hugs and Kisses&lt;br /&gt;-Aly&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a name="cutid1"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;div class="ljcut" text="Chapter Eighteen"&gt;&lt;p&gt;Chapter Eighteen&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Hello?” I say into my phone as soon as I pull it out of my pocket. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Hey Jay.” A smile instantly spreads across my face at the voice on the other end.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Hey Bri.”&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“So, uh, where are you?” I can hear the desperation in his voice and I laugh at the mental image I get in my head of Brian with his back turned to the guys, his head down low, his hands running through his hair.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I‘m in the elevator with my mom. We‘re on our way up right now.” I assure him as I hear Nick yelling in the background. “Nick getting antsy?” I ask him, a smirk playing on my face.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yes. So hurry up already.” &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“We‘re down the hall, just calm down. I‘ll see you in a sec.” I chuckle as I hang up and look over at my mom. “Brian. Nick‘s getting antsy.” I explain to her raised eyebrow. She nods in response and the elevator doors open with a ding. “Ready?”&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“C‘mon now, I wanna go say hello to the rest of the boys.” I laugh at her enthusiasm and walk down to Brian’s room.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Finally.” Brian breathes out as he opens the door and sees us standing there. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Brian!” Denise says, throwing her arms around Brian, wrapping him in a rib crushing hug. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Hello Denise. It‘s good to see you.” Brian says through laughter.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Look at you. You get more and more handsome every time I see you.” A huge smile covers my face when I see my mom pinch Brian’s cheeks and his face turns pink under that adorable blush of his.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Thanks.” &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Denise!” My mom let’s go of Brian’s cheeks as she looks over at Nick who’s desperately trying to make his way over to my mom. My mom smiles and makes her way towards Nick. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I laugh and look over at Brian as I move passed him, into the room. “Aw, how cute.” I tease Brian as I pinch his cheeks. Mimicking my mother’s previous actions. Brian just swats my hand away and shoots me a glare. I just laugh at him and blow him a kiss in return. “Love you.” A smile slowly creeps across his face and he just shakes his head, closing the door behind me.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Hi Nicky.” Denise laughs as Nick pulls her into a tight embrace.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I‘ve missed you.” Nick exclaims. The pure joy evident on his face. I look over at Brian and we share a knowing smile. It’s so funny to see Nick’s reaction when it comes to my mom.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Oh, I‘ve missed you too sweetie.” Denise says, finally pulling away from Nick. “You get taller and taller every time I see you Nick.” Denise says, shaking her head. “Pretty soon I‘m gonna need a ladder just to look you in the eyes.” My mom jokes as she looks up at Nick. We all a share a laugh in agreement to my mom’s observation. “Howie.” Denise says as she glances behind Nick and sees Howie patiently waiting for his turn.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Hey Denise.” Howie says as Denise pulls him into a hug. “How are you?”&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Oh, I‘m good.”&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“And Tony?” I shake my head at Howie. ’Oh Howard….’&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“He‘s doing good. He‘s sorry he couldn‘t come out here and visit. He had to take care of some business back home. He sends his love though.”&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Well, we‘re glad you could make it out here.” Howie replies, ushering my mom onto the couch.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Me too. I usually have to twist AJ‘s arm to get him to ask me to visit.” My mom says with a playful smile as we all take a seat.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“You know you can always just come out here on your own.” I tell her as I sit down next to Brian on the couch across from my mom. Nick has already jumped into the spot beside my mom before I could even take a step.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yes, but it means more when you ask me.” Denise says.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I roll me eyes at my mother and she laughs in return. “Well, looks like we got a few hours until dinner. What do you guys feel like doing?” I ask our small group after a few moments.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Have you guys gone down to the strip? I heard there were some pretty good shops down there.” Howie announces from his spot on the chair.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Shopping?” The guys laugh as me and my mom say this at the same time.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Well at least we know they‘re related.” Howie says glancing at Nick and Brian.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“So shopping then?” I look at my mother as we once again say it at the same time and she smiles.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Alright then, let‘s go. Jay, you‘re driving.” Nick says, standing up and heading to the door with my mom.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Figured.” I mumble as I get up and grab my jacket. Brian chuckles and pats my back, giving me an apologetic smile. “Care to drive then?” I ask, holding up the keys.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Brian laughs and shakes his head. “Nice one Jay.” He says before exiting the room. I shake my head and follow Brian out into the hall and head to the elevator’s with everyone.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Denis, you sure you want to go out right now? I mean you just got here, we can wait a few hours if you want to take a nap or something.” Howie asks as we board the elevator.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“No I‘m fine. I slept on the plane. Besides, as AJ used to always tell me, ‘you can sleep when your dead‘.” I laugh along with the everyone else and shake my head. ’God, I’ve missed that woman.’&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;-----------------------------&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&amp;nbsp;</content>
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    <title>Some Thing's You Just Can't Deny</title>
    <published>2008-04-08T02:52:06Z</published>
    <updated>2008-04-08T02:52:06Z</updated>
    <content type="html">&lt;p&gt;So i am officially estatic at this point. I've finally broke through on my writers block and squeezed out the next chapter. *does happy dance* Thank God. i was so worried i wouldn't have anything for you guys this week, but here it is. Well i'm just gonna stop talking your guys' ears off and get to the chapter. i hope you like it!&lt;br /&gt;Hug and Kisses&lt;br /&gt;-Aly&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;a name="cutid1"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;div class="ljcut" text="Chapter Seventeen"&gt;&lt;p&gt;Chapter Seventeen&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Oh sweetie, this is great! I‘m glad you decided to take me here.” My mom says excitedly as we pull into the parking lot.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I told you it‘d be a good surprise. You like it?” I ask as we get out of the car.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I love it. It looks beautiful.” I laugh at the pure excitement on my mothers face and smile; glad to have made her happy.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Well c‘mon. It looks even better inside.” I say as I usher her inside&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Hi, welcome to Mario and Luigis Bistro. How many?” I smile at the welcoming tone of the hostess before I answer.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Two please.” She smiles and motions for us to follow her&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Follow me please.” I glance back at my mom and catch her eye and she gives me a warm smile.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Your server will be with you shortly.” The hostess says as she hands us our menus.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Oh honey, this place is so beautiful.” I smile at my mom as I see her look around. She’s right, the place is beautiful. Candles are placed all around the restaurant with French flowers and greenery nicely hung from the ceiling and vines wrapping around the pillars. A jar with floating candles and rose petals decorate each of the table tops.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Hm, I just thought the name was cool the first time I came here.” She gives me a look and I laugh. “But, yes it is beautiful. I‘m glad you like it. I was saving it for someone special, and who better to take than my favorite girl?” I tell her with a playful smile.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Uh huh. You‘re such a charmer.” My mom tells me, laughing lightly as she shakes her head.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Hello. My name is Jackie, I‘ll be your sever for tonight. Can I start you off with some drinks?” Jackie asks with a smile.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I‘ll have an Ice Tea please.” Jackie looks over at my mom and smiles as she writes down on her pad.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“And for you?” She asks, turning to face me. I chuckle inwardly as I see her searching my face, trying to figure out where she’s seen me before.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I‘ll have the same.” I tell her with a smile.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Okay, it‘ll be right out.” Jackie replies with a smile before walking off into the kitchen. A few moments later, she returns with two cups of Ice Tea. “Okay, you guys ready to order?” She asks, placing the cups down in front of us.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I‘ll have the chicken parmesan please.” I smile and wait for my mom to finish ordering before I begin to speak.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“And I‘ll have the stuffed shells with the Cesar salad.” Jackie nods her head as she takes down our orders.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Okay, it‘ll be out in a few minutes.” She says, walking off to put in our orders.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“She‘ll probably realize it by the time she brings us the check.” My mom’s voice makes me look at her.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Realize what?”&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Who you are.” She says with a small smile.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Oh, yeah, probably.” Minutes pass as my mom and I start talking about everything.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“How are you doing sweetie? Everything going okay?” My mom asks, genuinely interested.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I‘m good. Everything is going pretty smoothly.” I finish answering just as Jackie comes over with our food.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Here you are.” Jackie says as she places our food in front of us. I flash her another smile as she leaves, after politely telling her we didn’t need anything else.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“So, how are the boys?” My mom asks me as she begins to eat.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“They‘re doing good. Howie and Leigh are doing good. He‘s really happy. I think it’s cause they’re still in the honeymoon phase but you know.” I say with a playful smirk. “ Nick‘s still the same, he hasn‘t changed since the last time you saw him.”&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“He still single?” She asks in-between bites.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yeah. He hasn‘t found anyone yet. You know, when he found out you were coming out here he got more excited than I did.” I say with laughter in my voice. Denise chuckles at this and shakes her head. &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“I‘ve missed him too. I‘ve missed all of you.” Denise says as she cups my cheek. I smile and lean into her touch.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“And Brian? How‘s he doing?” Denise asks, catching the way her son’s eyes seem to have lit up at the mention of Brian.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“He‘s doing really good. Still the same old silly Brian. Always cracking jokes and keeping the mood light.” I have to force myself not to say I love him as I answer my mom’s question. “We‘re actually supposed to meet up with them back at the hotel once we‘re done here. I promised the guys I wouldn‘t keep you all to myself.” I inform her as I push my mostly empty plate away.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Everything okay?” Jackie asks as she slides up to our table. “You guys want anything else? Desert?” I look over at my mom for a response and she shakes her head.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“No, we’re fine.” I tell her with a smile.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Okay I’ll bring the check. I’ll be right back.” Jackie says, leaving. A few moments later, she’s back in front of me, check in hand. “Here you go.” She says placing the check on the table. Instead of walking away, she seems to linger there for a second. “I know you probably get this all the time, and I wanted to wait until after you finished eating because it only seemed polite,” I smile at her rambling and wait for her to finish her little speech. “Um, can I have your autograph?” She finally asks, a blush rising to her cheeks.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“It’s no problem.” I tell her, taking her pad and pen and signing it. Taking some money out, I hand her the pad and the check. “Keep the change.” I tell her. She smiles and walks off after thanking me and wishing us a good afternoon. “You ready?” I ask my mom once I turn back to face her.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Yup.” She says, standing up. I smile and stand up as well, making my way to the door.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“Have a good day.” The hostess says to us as we pass by her.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;“You too.” I tell her in return. Holding open the door for my mother as we step outside we make our way to my car and get inside. I look over at her in the passenger seat and she smiles at me. I smile back at her and start the car. Making our way back to the hotel to meet the guys.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;--------------------------------------------&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/div&gt;</content>
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    <title>Song Fic ----&amp;gt; Stay</title>
    <published>2008-04-01T03:40:42Z</published>
    <updated>2008-04-01T03:46:51Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Alright so there are a few things that i have to tell you&amp;nbsp;along with this&amp;nbsp;post.&lt;br /&gt;One is that i am doing this un-beta'd because&amp;nbsp;my editor was being a weenie&amp;nbsp;(yes i said weenie - i was talking about the sandlot today *shrugs*) and&amp;nbsp;i didn't want to put this out any later so if there are errors i'm sorry and just let me know about the and i'll fix it.&lt;br /&gt;Two is well you know how i've been putting out drabbles and all that stuff, and well i'd hate to say it like this but i figured it'd be a less of a blow, but i have total writers block on the Some Thing's You Just Can't Deny fic. i've been wracking my brain trying to figure out how to write the next part but i keep coming up with nothing. and the frustrating part of this whole thing is that i have a bunch of ideas for the next chapters but i can't do them until i get over this one.&amp;nbsp;&lt;br /&gt;Three even though my brain&amp;nbsp;is on strike&amp;nbsp;right now, i probably will be putting more stuff out during the week, i'll try to keep your guys' minds occupies for the time being, and belive me, you guys will be the first to know when something finally breaks through.&lt;br /&gt;Oh and so uh, here's the song fic LOL&lt;br /&gt;If you're not familiar with&amp;nbsp;the song it's a country&amp;nbsp;song&lt;br /&gt;Stay by Sugarland.&lt;br /&gt;You know in case you&amp;nbsp;want to hear it before you read it or something......&lt;br /&gt;Hugs&amp;nbsp;Kisses and Apologies&lt;br /&gt;-Aly&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a name="cutid1"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;div class="ljcut" text="Baby, why don't you stay...."&gt;&lt;b&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;Stay by Sugarland&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;AJ smiles as the body laying next to him snuggles in deeper. Looking down at the sleeping form next to him AJ’s smile grows bigger. Brian is just so beautiful when he’s sleeping. AJ loves mornings like this; when he wakes up early and just watches Brian as he sleeps. He looks like such an angel, so at peace. AJ’s so happy, everything seems so perfect, and then a shadow passes over AJ’s features, and his smile falters. Brian’s not really even his. He has this whole other life that he’s leading. As this thought crosses AJ’s mind, he looks over at the clock and prays that he can have a little more time with the man he loves before he gets that infamous phone call telling him to get back to reality and return to his wife. Tears come to AJ’s eyes as he thinks about having to watch Brian walk away from him again, but quickly wipes them away as Brian starts to stir.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;font color="#6699cc"&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;I been sittin' here starin'&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;At the clock on the wall&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;And I been layin' here prayin'&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;Prayin' she won't call&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;It's just another call from home&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;And you'll get it and be gone&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;And I'll be cryin'&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Morning.” Brian says in a sleep filled voice, a smile gracing his features as he leans up to give AJ a small kiss.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Morning.” AJ replies, pulling back from the kiss.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“How long have you been up?” Brian asks, getting more comfortable.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Not that long.” AJ replies, trying to keep all thoughts of Brian leaving out of his head and focusing on the time he has with him right now.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“You want breakfast?” Brian asks, sitting up.&lt;/font&gt; &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Yeah I can eat.” AJ replies. Brian smiles and calls room service. AJ quietly slips out of bed and goes into the bathroom to brush his teeth. Once he emerges out of the restroom, Brian appears right in front of him. AJ smiles at the smile on Brian’s face, not entirely sure why he’s smiling. Brian then leans in and kisses AJ once more, this time a little more passionately.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“I like it when you taste like mint.” Brian whispers in AJ’s ear as he pulls away from the kiss.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;AJ chuckles softly and whispers a small thanks before moving away so Brian can do his thing. Brian smiles, and then disappears into the bathroom, leaving AJ alone in the room. It’s quiet and calm, and he can’t help but feeling really happy and at peace right now. The knock at the door makes AJ jump slightly. Making his way to the door, AJ opens it, thanking the guy before rolling the cart inside.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;Brian walks out of the bathroom just as AJ shuts the door, and walks over to the cart, pushing it to the bed. “C‘mon, I don‘t feel like doing anything today, let‘s just stay here for now.” AJ smiles at Brian, and follows him to the bed. Brian hands AJ his plate and they begin to eat.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;The day goes by somewhat quickly, it’s late afternoon and Brian’s laying lazily in AJ’s arms, idly running his fingers up and down AJ’s forearm. The sound of a sudden ringing brings both men out of their daze. As soon as the sound registers, AJ suddenly stiffens at familiar ringtone. Brian quickly moves away from AJ and grabs his cell, flipping it open. “Hey Sweetie.” AJ’s heart constricts at the loving tone in Brian’s voice as he talks to Leighanne. “Yeah I‘m on my way right now. I‘ll be home soon.” As Brian says this, AJ feels his heart constrict again, and he looks away when Brian hangs up the phone. &lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Your leaving.” AJ states, finally turning to look at Brian.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Yeah.” Brian says, getting up to gather his things.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Brian, don‘t. Just stay with me. Please.” AJ says, walking over to Brian.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;Brian sighs. “AJ you know I can‘t. I gotta get home or else she‘s gonna get suspicious.” &lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Brian-” AJ says, pleadingly&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“AJ, I can’t.” The final tone in Brian’s voice makes AJ stop. “I’ll call you later.” With that said, Brian walks out of the room, leaving AJ there by himself.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;font color="#6699cc"&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;And I'll be beggin' you, baby&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;Beg you not to leave&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;But I'll be left here waitin'&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;With my heart on my sleeve&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;Oh, for the next time we'll be here&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;Seems like a million years&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;And I think I'm dyin'&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;What do I have to do to make you see&lt;/em&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;em&gt;She can't love you like me&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Hey where are you?” Brian says as AJ picks up the phone, skipping the hellos.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Um, at home. Why?” AJ asks, a little surprised. AJ hadn’t heard from Brian since their little ‘meeting’ two week ago.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Good. I’m outside. Open your door.” AJ’s left with the sound of the dial tone before he even gets to say anything. Shaking his head he gets up and walks to the door. The doorbell rings just as his hand reaches the knob. &lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;Pulling open the door AJ begins to speak. “What’s-”&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;AJ’s cut off by Brian’s lips crashing against his. Stumbling as Brian pushes him farther into the house, slamming the door behind him. Brian finally pulls away gasping for air. “I’ve missed you.” Brian says.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“I’ve missed you too.” AJ replies with a small smile. Brian returns his smile and then attaches his mouth back to AJ’s. Not missing a beat AJ wraps his arms around Brian’s waist, opening his mouth up to Brian’s tongue. &lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“I want you.” Brian whispers against AJ’s lips. AJ nods and silently leads Brian to his room. Once inside the room, Brian closes the door and leads AJ to the bed. Guiding him to lie back before covering AJ’s body with his own.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“What made you come over?” AJ asks, after lying there for awhile, resting in Brian’s arms. &lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“What do you mean?” &lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Well you usually don’t come over, you just call and we meet up somewhere.” As AJ tells him this, he can’t help but think how that sounded. But he doesn’t get much time to think about it because he can feel Brian tense slightly, and he knows whatever Brian’s going to say next isn’t good news.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Well there is something.” AJ turns to look in Brian’s eyes. “I guess I just wanted to see you before I took off.” Brian explains, not looking AJ in the eye.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Took off? Where are you going?” AJ says, sitting up further in bed.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Well me and Leigh are going on a vacation and we’ll be gone for a few weeks.” Brian says, glancing up at AJ.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“A few weeks?” AJ asks, making sure he heard Brian right.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Yeah.” Brian says.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Brian don’t go. Please. Why don’t me and you go away. I haven’t seen you in awhile. C’mon, let’s just get away from it all. We can leave this, leave everyone and go. We can be together.” AJ begs, kneeling on the bed in front of Brian. Something inside him tells him that if Brian goes away with Leighanne then what they have is gonna be over.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;font color="#6699cc"&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;Why don't you stay&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;I'm down on my knees&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;font color="#6699cc"&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;I'm so tired of bein' lonely&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;Don't I give you what you need&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;When she calls you to go&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;There is one thing you should know&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;We don't have to live this way&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;Baby, why don't you stay (yeah)&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/font&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“AJ you know we can’t do that. It’ll look too obvious.” Brian says with a sigh.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Too obvious!” AJ says, completely loosing his composure.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“AJ….” Brian warns.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“No Brian. When the hell are you gonna leave her. When are you gonna tell everyone that we‘re in love. That we‘re together.” AJ says standing up.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Soon. I promise, just, now‘s not the right time.” Brian says, standing up as well.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“When is the right time Brian?” AJ says, his anger finally getting the best of him. “We‘ve been sleeping togther for the past three months, and you‘ve been saying ‘now’s not the right time’ every time this conversation comes up!”&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“I will AJ. I will. Just give me a little more time.” &lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Time? Brian I‘ve been giving you time. I can‘t keep waiting for you!” AJ yells.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;em&gt;&lt;font color="#6699cc"&gt;You keep tellin' me, baby&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/font&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;There will come a time&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;When you will leave her arms&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;And forever be in mine&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;But I don't think that's the truth&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;And I don't like bein' used&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;And I'm tired 'a waitin'&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“AJ please.” Brian says, trying to reason with AJ.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“No Bri. What‘s actually keeping you from telling everyone?” AJ asks the question that’s been burning in his head ever since these fights started. He’d been putting this question off for a long time, afraid of the answer. But AJ was way past afraid, he wanted to know what the hell was going on now.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“It‘s Leighanne.” Brian says sighing. Looking away from AJ as he says this.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;AJ feels all the air leave his lungs, like he’s been hit hard in the stomach. Part of him suspected that Leigh was one of the reasons from stopping Brian, but actually hearing Brian say it, knocked him completely off guard. “Leigh?” &lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“I just gotta slowly let her know. I don’t want to hurt her.” Brian tries to explain.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Hurt her?!” AJ asks in disbelief. “What about me? You don’t think it hurts to see you just jump up and leave every time she calls when we’re together!” AJ asks, pure hurt and anger in his eyes.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;font color="#6699cc"&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;It's too much pain to have to bear&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;To love a man you have to share&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“I know it hurts. And I’m sorry. I’m not trying to do this on purpose. I love you I do you know that.” Brian says stepping closer to AJ. “What do I have to do to prove it to you?”&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Leave her. Don’t go. Tell everyone. Anywhere‘s a good start. Pick one.” AJ says, crossing his arms over his chest.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“AJ, I can’t.”&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Can’t or won’t?” AJ asks, his eyes scanning Brian. Brian looks away from AJ’s intense stare as AJ continues to speak. “God Brian, how much more do you need. I’ve given you all of me. I love you, shouldn’t that be good enough. We don’t have to keep fighting like this… just don’t leave.” AJ says.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;font color="#6699cc"&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;Why don't you stay&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;I'm down on my knees&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;I'm so tired of bein' lonely&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;Don't I give you what you need&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;When she calls you to go&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;There is one thing you should know&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;We don't have to live this way&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;Baby, why don't you stay (yeah)&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;Brian doesn’t say anything once AJ finishes, he just keeps staring at the ground, not able to look at AJ. AJ shakes his head at Brian’s ill atempt to explain himself. He should have figured this out a long time ago. He’s wasted months of his life loving someone that was never truly going to love him back fully. “Go.” AJ says, giving up.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“What?” Brian asks, his head snapping up at what AJ said.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;“Go on your vacation with Leighanne.” AJ elaborates. Brian smiles, sighing with relief, walking over to AJ and throwing his arms around him, hugging him, tightly. AJ doesn’t return Brian’s embrace, because he’s not finished yet. “But don’t come back Brian.”&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;font color="#000000"&gt;Brian stiffens suddenly at AJ’s words and slowly pulls back from AJ to look into his eyes. “What?” Brian whispers, not sure if he heard AJ correctly.&lt;/font&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;font color="#6699cc"&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;I can't take it any longer&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;But my will is gettin' stronger&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;And I think I know just what I have to do&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;I can't waste another minute&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;After all that I put in it&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;I've given you my best&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p align="center"&gt;&lt;em&gt;Why does she get the best of you&l