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| Snagged from ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) emi101: I am not: altogether sane. I love: creativity. I hate: ignorance. I fear: rejection. I hope: for hope. I hear: my mother's hair-dryer. I crave: self destruction. I regret: not doing it when I had the balls. I cry: alone. I care: about too much. I always: think. I believe: that my Girls are beautiful. I feel alone: all the time. I listen: to music every day. I hide: in my room. I drive: never. I sing: but I shouldn't. I dance: when nobody's watching. I write: when I'm inspired. I play: a little of this, a little of that. I miss: not caring. I search: endlessly. I learn: constantly. I feel: depressed, angry. I know: who my friends are. I say: nothing. I succeed: at nothing. I dream: about everything. I wonder: if there's life after this, depression. I want: warmth. I have: to turn a light on. I give: all I am. I fell: asleep last night. I fight: life and death. I need: death and life. | |
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| ( CLICK. )NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.And when I went to the site that was in the readme.txt file that they'd given me for the "password" ( http://moviecode.net): IT WAS JUST PORN.700mb of my download - GONE. So I'm trying another download, which means another 700mb. WE DON'T HAVE FUCKING UNLIMITED DOWNLOAD, YOU KNOW. Just.. PORN. I CAN'T EVEN BEGIN TO EXPRESS MY FURY. | |
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| THE GRATITUDE JOURNAL
→ Every day write a list of things that you're grateful for and why.
→ Each day, you should have a MINIMUM of five things.
→ If you miss a day, then the next day, you should have a minimum of TEN things. And for each day you miss, add five more things.
→ Take it seriously, mean it, love it, enjoy it, live your best life!
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♥ Today, I'm grateful for my brother, Matt. He invited me to play a game with him on his Playstation 3. Even though I lost every single time, it was the most fun I've had in a long time. Not because I laughed a lot, or because we even talked a lot. But because we were doing something together, and he asked me. And that, for us, is rare. It meant the world to me.
♥ I'm grateful for my best friend Andrea. She called my psychologist because she was worried about me. It was the first time I really felt cared about, like someone would miss me if I were gone tomorrow. I don't even have words that can describe what this means to me. I'm grateful for all that we have in common, and everything that we talk about, and how it never gets awkward, and how we can talk about anything and everything. I love the films we make and the photoshoots we do and all of the creative things in between. I love how I can be honest with her, and know that she'll understand. And I know that she knows that I'll understand. I love the mutual honesty and love and respect and dlfkjgdfgj between us. It's real and what's more, for the first time, I believe it.
♥ I'm grateful for creativity. That sense of accomplishment, satisfaction, and beauty you feel when you finish something you're proud of and happy with. I'm grateful for the focus, the drive, the energy to CREATE. The love I have for it. The processes. I respect I have, the willingness to learn more and more about the programs that I use, to unleash their potential, to unleash MY potential, to discover and learn NEW programs. New equipment. To just keep learning and learning and creating and always creating.
♥ I'm grateful for my migraine medication. It's saved my life. If I miss a dose, I get the WORST migraines in the history of the world. I'm so grateful for my neurologist for prescribing it to me.
♥ I'm grateful for my pyjama pants. They are the most comfortable pants I've ever owned. If I spend all day in my jeans, or anything else, the second I put on my pyjama pants at the end of the day, it's like heaven. It's incredible. (They're silk.)
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| HIATUS = OVER.
Reason: Oh, y'know... something about being OCD about posting. And just not being able to stay away from livejournal.
BUT WE HAVE REVELATIONS PEOPLE. Well, more of an... affirmation. I don't even know what the fuck to call it. Oprah has this thing where she keeps a gratitude journal. At the end of the day, or whenever she can, she writes down a minimum of five things that she's grateful for.
So, I'm going to try and start doing that. Here, on livejournal. Every day. It's just something small to make my life a little bit more fulfilling, but every little bit counts. Oprah says that it changed her life. She consciously went through her day looking for things to be grateful for, and it actually made her CREATE things to be grateful for, so you live your life BETTER. So I'm going to try this. It might be different, between a hand-written journal and an online-journal, I don't know. But I'm still going to try and do it. AND IF I MISS ONE DAY, then the next day I have to do a minimum of TEN.
OKAY. I'm going to lay down the rules for myself, and you guys, so you can give me a kick up the ass:
THE GRATITUDE JOURNAL
→ Every day write a list of things that you're grateful for and why.
→ Each day, you should have a MINIMUM of five things.
→ If you miss a day, then the next day, you should have a minimum of TEN things. And for each day you miss, add five more things.
→ Take it seriously, mean it, love it, enjoy it, live your best life!
OMG, I JUST HAD THE BEST IDEA. WHY DON'T YOU ALL JOIN ME? EVERY ONE. AND GET EVERYONE ON YOUR F-LIST TO DO IT TOO. JOIN ME IN THE GRATITUDE JOURNAL!!!! Copy/paste the rules into your journal and share it with your friends!!!
I'm going to made a new post especially for it, straight after this one.
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| I wish I could feel the dull vibrations from my small bedroom heater pulsating up my feet, around my calves and hips to settle the lingering back pain of an awkward nights sleep. But perhaps all I'm allowed for comfort is the marvelous peace and silence of solitude that two-am brings. There's room to breathe, room to move, room to finally exhale that breath I feel like I've been holding on to all day. It's times like these I allow myself to be creative, without the pressure of onlookers, without the harsh judgment of my own self. For just a few hours, I let myself work in momentary bliss. And it's perfect. Of course the morning will come and the criticisms will inevitably follow, from others but usually just myself. And the bliss I enjoyed for such small a time will have counted for nothing. Was it worth it? Yes, no, maybe... This is how lives are ruined. x | |
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| This was important enough to take a step back from my hiatus:
EMMY NOMINATIONS: Best lead actress in a drama series:
Patricia Arquette, "Medium" ("Aftertaste")
Glenn Close, "Damages" ("Pilot")
Minnie Driver, "The Riches" ("Dead Calm")
Sally Field, "Brothers and Sisters" ("History Repeating")
Mariska Hargitay, "Law and Order: Special Victims Unit" ("Undercover")
Holly Hunter, "Saving Grace" ("Tacos, Tulips, Duck and Spices")
Elisabeth Moss, "Mad Men" ("The Hobo Code")
Mary McDonnell, "Battlestar Galactica" ("Faith")
Kyra Sedgwick, "The Closer" ("Manhunt")
Jeanne Tripplehorn, "Big Love" ("Take Me As I Am"
SHE HAS TO WIN. Anyone that's actually seen Undercover has to agree with me. YOU CAN'T SEE THAT EPISODE AND THEN SAY SHE DOESN'T DESERVE AN EMMY. SHE IS RIDICULOUSLY TALENTED AND AMAZING AND INCREDIBLE.
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|  TITLE: LIFE CHANGES RATING: PG-13/NC-17 eventually PAIRINGS: Nick and others WARNINGS: Adult content and language SUMMARY: A casual remark can change a life SPOILERS: None DISCLAIMER: If you don’t recognize it, it’s mine. Otherwise, everything belongs to Bruckheimer, CBS and Zuicker. A/N: This is not a new story. When I first wrote it, I couldn't find a home for it. No site seemed to want it. It is Nick and Greg but it's also Nick's journey to get to Greg. Greg is mentioned throughout the story but does not come into it completely until Chapter 13. If you wait till then, you will miss a lot. I still think this is good and I'm posting it now because I want to give it another chance and to show off the spectacular banner Bflyw created. Previous chapters can be found here( Chapter 2 - Late Thursday Night ) | |
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| Immune to the Stuff pt. 14 FRT Warnings: none really Summary: Greg chats with Roger. Wds: 3232 | |
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| Immune to the Stuff pt. 13 FRT Warnings: suspiciously familiar psychiatrists Summary: Nick finally gets some professional help. Wds 3237 | |
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| Posting in deference to those of you who've owned dogs longer than I have, and might know something.
On Sunday, everything was fine, until, without warning, the storm puppy started to act hurt. I couldn't figure out exactly what was wrong, but when I would pet him or pick him up, he'd yelp like he was in pain. It's loud, high-pitched yelping, like he's seriously being hurt.
Monday, there was more of that, and he had a lot less energy than usual.
Today, he's noticeably better, but there's still something wrong.
I can't figure out what the actual problem is. He was supervised on Sunday, so he didn't fall, wasn't stepped on, etc. Maybe it's internal? A sore spot, a pinched nerve? It's either on his back, around his rear, or involving his back legs. I've been petting him on the head, the stomach, etc., to avoid those areas.
Since he's had more energy and seems less sensitive today, I'm taking that as a good sign. Maybe he's healing on his own.
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| TITLE: LIFE CHANGES RATING: PG-13/NC-17 eventually PAIRINGS: Nick/Greg eventually WARNINGS: Adult content and language SUMMARY: A casual remark can change a life SPOILERS: None DISCLAIMER: If you don’t recognize it, it’s mine. Otherwise, everything belongs to Bruckheimer, CBS and Zuicker. A/N: This is not a new story. When I first wrote it I couldn't find a home for it. No site seemed to want it. It is Nick and Greg but it's also Nick's journey to get to Greg. Greg is mentioned throughout the story but does not come into it completely until Chapter 13. If you wait till then, you will miss a lot. I still think this is good and I'm posting it now because I want to give it another chance and to show off the spectacular banner Bflw created. ( Chapter 1 - Early Thursday Morning ) | |
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| Story title: All Tied up
Rating: NC-17
Fandom: CSI
Pairing: Nick and Greg
Configurations : M/m
Warnings: Very mild bondage and D/s type themes
Note: This was requested by dotty_at_home , "This comes up in the episode "Toe Tags" where Greg is teased about being a Boy Scout while rappeling down the side of a cliff. His response? "Eagle Scout! I didn't earn a chestful of merit badges for nothing." Then, while discussing rope and knots, "Non-marring wrist restraints? Oh sure, you have to be able to do those in order to become an Eagle Scout." I'm not entirely sure he was joking. *giggles* And with that, a bunny bit me right on the @$$. I suspect a short fic may be in order. About knots and all the other kinky things that could be done with the skills learned while achieving Eagle Scout Merit Badges. I hope you enjoy, darlin'...no more plot bunnies!!!! MC
A/N: This is not meant to disrespect Scouting in any form or fashion.
Word Count: Approx. 1,320
Summary: Nick did not realize that being an Eagle Scout had so much potential.
Feedback: Is always welcome *grins*
Disclaimers: This is fanfic, all standard disclaimers...CSI belongs to blah, blah, blah...I just want to play in the sandbox.
All Tied Up
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| HIATUSYou might see me around, commenting here and there. But I won't be posting for a while, unless something EXTREME happens. I don't know how long I'll be gone for... maybe a week, maybe two or three or maybe a month or two or more. I really don't know. Reasons being that I need focus in my life and I think that means ruling out things that are distracting for me - this is one of them. I need to focus on myself from an internal perspective, and livejournal provides an avenue for me to focus on myself from an external and detatched perspective, if that makes sense. Some of you have my email address, and some of you I have added on MSN - so don't hesitate to contact me. But (especially with email) I can't guarantee that I'll reply, unless it's something extremely important regarding you, me, Celine, Mariska, any of my other fandoms. ♥ I will be back, I just don't know when. I'll miss you guys! x♥♥♥♥♥ | |
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| Hello, I've been lurking around this site for quite a while, and I thought it would be time to post something. So let's see if that has worked. Here is a fic, a very short one though, that I wrote a while ago. I hope you like it. It's a drabble, thank you mactwck for the word. Title: When Hell Freezes Over Rating: PG Warnings: none, unless you don't like Catherine :) Summary: Catherine finds out about Nick and Greg. Spoilers: absolutely none. | |
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| dwseason4A journal where the alternative fourth season of the TV show Doctor Who is being written. | |
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| lol_comicsKeep youself smiling at the little things with some funny comics. | |
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| ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif) bikesA community for everyone who loves bicycles, motorbikes, and more. | |
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| Fic search. Sorry if they're not allowed (delete if you must), but I dunno who else to ask. Nick/Kevin. It's pretty old, I'd say. The thing that's really sticking out in my mind is that Kevin calls Nick "Kermit" and Nick calls Kev "Piggy."...And I'm remembering Kev singing "Rainbow connection" to Nick at some point.
Thanks in advance, this has been driving me nutty for weeks. | |
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